Into the Darkness

Judgment is coming, soon all will face it Here is the darkness why not embrace it The pain is one thing I’ll never know For into the darkness I'm doomed to go What does it matter if I cannot feel Into the darkness nothing is real Excessive darkness will take its tolls On the shameful and corrupted souls A fire’s last ember is hard to defend Life, so fragile yet not easy to end Maybe it's better for me anyway I’ll long for darkness and not the day I’m turning the trip of insanity It makes its stops but not for me Into a darkness that digs my grave Where ending days meet madman’s rave Will I feel better not having a name? Would I feel better if nothingness came? While I’m still living they'll cut me apart Into the darkness that’s changing my heart Suspicion bores deep into my soul Darkness infests and fills in the hole If throbbing, at all, can be swept away I’ll long for darkness and not the day My mind has broken through blinding mist How can I know if I even exist An apparition abruptly appears But I can’t see, through bittersweet tears Her feral caged stare makes me fly Mirror reflections are caught in her eyes Since I know her not, can I feel her love? In her face of lies that I’m thinking of The woman drifts on but was she there Too much of a dream can cause nightmares I hear a voice say, "I always loved you" Do memories prove experience true? How can I know that I'm losing my mind? Is the answer even possible to find? Confusion forces madness upon men Can I go back where I've never been? I've lost hold of my last waning candle Here it's gone but for waxed covered handle Into the darkness, look, it surrounds me But, alas, this time the pain has found me There's a bending trail that leads to the night I knew for some time there'd be no bright light A twisted tree stands in paradise grown My eyes will tell me what's not to be known Those barren branches seem productive Simplest solutions are so seductive A lonely test’ment to what goes wrong When dying spirits stand too long I question the times I have forgotten As the tree's fruit, inside I am rotten Then all’s so clear the answers revealed What I’ve held near my shattering shield Full of rat poison I know I must die So much was easy when I chose the lie Standing before me a Silhouette Shade Through depths of darkness watch it wade And never, I know, has such beauty flowed With an air of grace down a damned filled road I find that my will is forced to follow Into the darkness the path is swallowed But then born again, I can see the shade No longer alone and ever afraid Many places, I am led through Familiar faces I once knew Their mouths gape open and spilling one word Into the darkness their voices unheard My heart turns cold and I cannot move Demand that purpose be quickly proved The supernat’ral need not persuade Into the darkness I follow the shade Given a score and no one else around Silence will be an unsettling sound Bloody wars clashed, I never will fight Many of wrongs not able to right A dirty child stops, I can see it cry I hate to pass up but my soul will die Visions of evil that humans have made I’d never believe it, not for the shade Seasons are changing but it’s always cold Time passes on I’m growing so old Like a lost black sheep bumping the shade I knew come a day even it would fade In despair, the end, I grab for its hand My paws are useless but digging in sand At once I'm human, death, and its charms Into the darkness, folding my arms End Written January 29th, 2002 © on Jan 29 2002 09:43 AM PST   0 • 10