birksy

"Damn! I feel your claws, your hands they hold my heart, my wrists, I cannot yet break free, cannot yet know if it is me who is the foolish one. Twisted, this way and that, they’ll be no piece of me as..."

"So soon the hollow door, my hand goes out, and through I go, it’s a place that’s gonna hurt so hard. And there’s nothing that I know, that’ll prepare me for the other side, I just close my eyes, and h..."

"I turn the tap, want to torture you, want to hear you scream a submission, want to make you plead so hard you cry, but I do not have any tools, save the tap of words, so I try and turn it right, want ..."

"On my neck, I feel a scorpion, though not awake, he slumbers there, in then out, a threat. His harsh feet tickle, but I dare not scratch, he is a foe not to be reckoned with. I fear he's not for any..."

"Underneath the deep blue sea, I smile at fish, a smile's for free, they pretend not to see, a shark's kind smile, is not for free. Written January 30th, 2002 © on Jan 30 2002 06:41 AM PST, Simon Birk..."

"She washes a wall not quickly, nor slow, a wipe of the cloth a dozen so times, till she thinks of something else she should do, that now must be cleaned, then she washes the wall, again. Written Janua..."

"Do it while you can, won’t get a second chance, don't stand there on your own, ask that pretty girl for the last dance. Help another’s cause, maybe save another’s life, savour the applause, calm anoth..."

"Finger in the sky, where does the wind blow today? I am sheltered in a carriage, so feel no breath of air, disconnected from the natural world. I sit, stare safely as trees bustle by, I sit disconnect..."

"On my shelves, a book on fatherhood, hardly opened, now likely not to be, a present for the charity bag. Such physical reminders I can do without, need to try and limit the pain to everything I feel i..."

"Abbreviation! Abbreviation! Abbreviation! Abbreviation! Say it often enough, and it doesn’t mean a thing, just like an abbreviation! Written January 31st, 2002 © on Jan 30 2002 10:36 PM PST, Simon Bi..."

"Sometimes aloof, sometimes so tender, sometimes as funny as hell, she’s an enigma, a mystery, a downright fascination, this full of life, full of heart, girl. Written January 31st, 2002 © on Jan 30 2..."

"Oh, to quench, to drink a fill, then drink again, nothing in my way, no barriers, no borders, no people, to be in your arms, by your side, to sleep, then wake with you there, to keep you in my thought..."

"Infatuation Neither party responsible For their own feelings, And lost causes Try so hard to be found Under impossible pressure. Are we not allowed To realise our own Intimate emotions? Or will we ris..."

"He picks it up, that painted stone, it weighs what it weighs, nothing attached to it now, but he hopes time will change that can see how events may unfold... could be the best move he ever will make,..."

"I'm trying too hard, the message is more simple, infatuation will only be complete when we meet. Written January 31st, 2002 © on Jan 31 2002 06:17 AM PST, Simon Birks   0 • 12"

"Surface is smooth, nice suit, glinting smile, he's a man who turns heads, and tails, and she is too precious, she feels too much in his shadow, and he has a crowded shadow. Mismatched, they continue, ..."

"No more stops, can't take them any more, got to get my steam up, gonna just keep going. Come along, you can join me, I'm only going forward, feels like I'm going all the way. Yeah, its gonna get bumpy..."

"We've all got a mum, some we like, some that frustrate, but all we would willingly hug, if only she would ask. Written January 31st, 2002 © on Jan 31 2002 07:13 AM PST, Simon Birks   0 • 8"

"Tea and a current bun, enough to fill a gap, but I know the gap is wide. Need more than food today, need more than smiles, need to sit beside, sit behind, sit until the sitting hurts, then move on som..."

"Living in the loft, just me on my own, sit on the edge of my bed, head in hands, heart in loops, only my clothes in the cupboards. Hear the laughing down below, not a part of it anymore, but I've stil..."

"Hungry, and won't be satiated, not even when dawn breaks, I'll have to keep you here, pin you down, make you mine all over again. Written January 31st, 2002 © on Jan 31 2002 08:22 AM PST, Simon Birks..."

"As Friday mornings go, This hasn’t been a good one, hasn’t been a good one at all. My wife told my eldest, it’s just Mummy’s room, now, Daddy’s moved on upstairs. Then I watched, as my gloves fell, ge..."

"Yeah, Dad, got a hangover, didn’t think it’d effect me, sorry I’m late, couldn’t get up with the sun. What’s the matter? There’s no worries, it’s just a job, I know you pay me, don’t be silly you can..."

"That cough’s from her smoking, you can hear it deep down, you can tell that she hardly knows it’s there. Her children have the same cough, she thinks it’s hereditary, in a way, I suppose it is. Though..."

"Texting his girlfriend, shoulders hunched forward, a man with no plan, for anyone but himself. He feels the nerves, hands shake, as he finds her name, presses send, funny how it’s so similar to his wi..."

"Quite the opposite, she wanted quite the opposite, and I knew it, knew it for so long. Waited, lazily, should have made an effort, but didn't, that was all my fault. Now it's happened, she has a chanc..."

"Always complex, from now on always complex, lucky I was good at maths. Take from one side, then take from the other, balance the equation, keep them equal, when all has gone, you are left with an answ..."

"On the sofa, I see you, watch you, try and feel you, smile when you smile, too. Then follow you upstairs, watch you undress, watch you sleep the long night through. And though you may not know it, lea..."

"Take me to a lake, roll our mat upon the ground, then lay down next to me, watch the clouds as they slowly float one day we’ll be there, come slip your hand into mine, there'll be no more rain, just t..."

"Pieces of the jigsaw, edges done, and, oh some body, I can see. Pieces still to find, swap them one at a time, till at last we can stand no more, cheat, and sneak a look at the picture on the box. Wri..."

"That's what I need, a rescue system, a hand out of nowhere to pull me up, perhaps a bridge across a canyon, or a barge across a loch, something that'll take me all the way. And in the distance, I can ..."

"Gonna get some gloves back, come on, come to daddy, let me dry you on my warm radiator. I'll get you nice and snug tonight, come on can you be my gloves tonight? Written February 1st, 2002 © on Feb 0..."

"I stroke you, softly at first, but then more, and the more I stroke, the more I can't help myself, but we promised it would be softly tonight. My breath is deep, I control my movements, so softly, unt..."

"Hey, girl, you can get angry at me, as long as you promise you'll look just like you do in that picture. Phew! Irresistable, couldn't take my hands off you, girl, you can get angry at me! Written Febr..."

"A friend once told me That the good guys always won, And I laughed at the saying, But maybe he was right. Maybe he knew you. I think I'll try and find him To show him to you, And reassure my friend Wi..."

"The person near to table four, Has been sitting there an hour or more, Never once asked how he is, Never once been asked. I see him in my corner eye, But straight on, however hard I try, He always hi..."

"So we reach a new reality today, those cards, annual words of love, commitment, contentment, time to take them to the bin. And the bitterness in your voice, I know why it's there, I have nothing I ca..."

"Can’t see any light, I know it is there, am hanging a hope that it'll all be okay, but still it’s only a light, and in my experience, bulbs can often blow. Can't wait for an opening, yet I'm gonna be..."

"Maybe tonight, when you're all on your own, you'll hear a strange noise, a growl or a groan, from the blackened out kitchen, and you reach for the phone; don't reach for the phone. Maybe tonight, whe..."

"Quietly, oh so quietly, that's what it felt like, he moves, but it makes him hurt to move without her, and there's so much space to navigate, he wonders how he can. The dark night makes him cool, he s..."

"No pinching, no punching, not the nice sort now, no punching, no kicking, not above the belt now, no poking in the eye, just plenty of sly, well, that's what it feels like, now. Written February 2nd, ..."

"No food inside me, no feelings too, no place to run for, no place will do, I stand uncovered, I stand to lose, I stand rejected, I stand accused. Written February 3rd, 2002 © on Feb 02 2002 09:27 PM ..."

"I clean my pores, wipe them slowly, my face looks low, however hard I try I look the same, just good old Si, he'll never change. But inside I churn, not been this bad in years. I clean my pores, thoug..."

"Too good to last, all comes crashing down, this future's bleak, and I'm not even in it. I'll try to be good, though prayers would be lost, I cannot accept the empty words. Please let it be later, let ..."

"The cupboards quite empty, pulling out bit by bit, a surgical removal, without anaesthetic. In a few weeks time, they'll be nothing left, and it's a wonder how I'll stand. Keep in the picture, never f..."

"My heart's squeezed to half its size, least that's how it feels when I think of you, my lungs only breathe the shallowest of breaths, my brain becomes quite useless, But my hope, oh, my hope it grows,..."

"Too far away, with each passing moment, I'm too far away, cold, and shivering, on the edge of afraid, right now, I'm too far away. Believe in that fate, she'll take me just somewhere, can't figure ou..."

"I once stood at this station, at a quarter to five a.m., wondering why. Now, at gone eight, I’m still not late, I’m so glad I changed my fate. Written February 4th, 2002 © on Feb 03 2002 07:26 PM PS..."

"If I wore a hat like that, my hair would be flat, a flat hair mat, if I wore a hat like that. Written February 4th, 2002 © on Feb 03 2002 07:29 PM PST, Simon Birks   0 • 10"

"She sits so quietly, as quietly as she stands, would like to ask her why, there must be something on her mind, but her silence is complete, she really doesn’t want to talk, lucky if I even get a smile..."

"Everybody’s woes, they’re all here for us to hear, realise they’re no different from your own, and it’s this that makes it better, these social sharing ways, knowing that your problems are never yours..."

"There’s a small gap in the wall, and from here I couldn’t make it, and waiting for it to ruin, could ruin me, too, so I decide I’ll have to break it down, take my pen and start to chip away, I’ll leav..."

"I’ve won just three awards, a prize for science, a prize for high jump, and third prize for playing pool, I’m a winner at not winning, which is why I’m just a little paranoid. But don’t mind me, it’s ..."

"It’s the Russian in me, that confuses, you see, not sure who I should be, me or this man called Birsky, I quite like them both, in a funny old way, won’t mind what you call me, today. Written February..."

"Wipe the sleep away, my god, you’re still here, nothing’s the problem anymore, you’re still here, get up, take a shower with you, eat breakfast, make love to you, all these things to look forward to, ..."

"Excuse me, I’ve lost something, I thought it might still be here, remember me, the other day I dropped a cup, spilled the love from inside, and you helped me clear it up. Well there’s a tiny bit miss..."

"I could do with you right now, leave work, go and find you, simply waiting there for me. It’d be just the best thing, no more work, just some playing, do more than just think about you. You’re in my d..."

"There they go again, feel them spread, feel them awaken certain feelings, certain parts, that desire such tingles. I bathe in the feeling, I cannot break from it, and, like the drug they are, I only w..."

"I'd like to look you in the eye, take your hand, show you my sincerity, this game we play is no game to me. I want you to hear my speech, how I sound, the way I can't pronounce my 'R's, I need you to ..."

"Contentment, Oh, what a word, I whirl within twisters, and see contentment outside, as solid an object as I could hope to see. I'd shed a tear if there was time, but I'm spun around again, then black..."