Obsessions

So many years, I’ve wasted so many years Hoping you would love me, Caring if you loved me. But now, I’m empty. I see your shadow; It stalks you in the night As I stalk you in the day. I don’t want you anymore But I’m damn sure going to make you pay. You play with emotions, You played with mine. Tears washed away in a flood of hate, Pain is my friend, as it soon shall be yours You think I’m playing around, Just a scorned lover, wanting revenge. You took my life that night Not physically but emotionally. Please tell me why you think you can, Play around with people’s lives. I’ve lost the battle That’s fought each night, I want you to feel what its like. Laying in bed, Wondering if tonight’s the night. Will you get up and fight another day, Or will you give up and just fade away. I faded away once, lived in a shadow of pain. Years went by as I crumbled, Hating myself and everyone else Wanting to die. On the outside I would smile and laugh, But all the while I was crying inside. Asking for help but never knowing how or even why. Insane emotions, Others had problems; so friends just seem to float away. Left on my own, gave me time to think Think about you, about me; the night under a star less sky. Obsession grew, took over my life. Darkened eyes looked out to the world now, Cynical, resentful down right hateful Suicidal.I cant remember when i did this one, Written September 10th, 2001 © on Sep 09 2001 09:17 PM PST, Rebecca   0 • 8