What a girl remembers
A smile comes to my faceEvery time I think about you.I know it’s not right,I should hate youBut I needed you thenAnd now.My memories tear at my heartBut it wasn’t your faultI see that now.Music played as I walked inAnd I knew that it wasn’t going to be the same.I told you that I liked youAnd you smiled at meThat smile lit up my lifeSiting under that star-less skyI remember you behind meJames talking to usAs you held me to youWhispering in my ear.Then a storm blew overYou left me aloneAnd I knew you could never be mine.Two days later I was toldYou didn’t want anything to do with meYou’re ashamed of meOf us and of that starless night.But what I couldn’t understand wasWhy you didn’t tell me yourself.James was a friend but after thatIt was never the sameI remember you touched me, it burntI pulled away from youYou spoke but apologizing didn’t mean anything.That was the day, I vowedThat id never let another hurt meThe way you did.Each day I saw youI sunk deeper and deeper within myselfWithdrawn and angryI blamed you for all my mistakes.A year past and people asked why?Why I hate you so much?What could I say?The truthNo, so I stayed silentBut the inevitable became.We were alone together, picking upMy bag I tried to leaveBut you spoke “Why?”Your voice so soft it broke meLooking at you I realizedYou didn’t even know.It’s strange that something should burn into my soulBut be lost in your mind.Tears running down my face I left.I cried that day,Pure tears flooded me.Sitting I rememberAnna yelling at you, telling you things long forgottenIn your heart and in your mind.Then it hit you,I could see the memory flood your brainPeople asked what it was all aboutBut you hid the secret from themAshamed of me again.I had loved you for2 years and 93 daysbut you didn’t even care enough to understand what you had done to me.The day drifted onFollowed by another and another.Until one day you stopped meAsking for a truths I knew I could never give.But I nodded needing to get away from you.Then you left and I knew I needed to grow up.You were the first to break my heart but not the lastBut you’re the only one who took my soul.So each day green eyes haunt meAnd every night starless skies cover me in a blanket of deceit. Written September 9th, 2001 © on Sep 09 2001 12:28 AM PST, Rebecca 0 • 1
AI analysis available. Enable JavaScript to interact.
About this line
"A smile comes to my faceEvery time I think about you.I know it’s not right,I should hate youBut I needed you thenAnd now.My memories tear at my heartBut it wasn’t your faultI see that now.Music played as I walked inAnd I knew that it wasn’t going to be the same.I told you that I liked youAnd you smiled at meThat smile lit up my lifeSiting under that star-less skyI remember you behind meJames talking to usAs you held me to youWhispering in my ear.Then a storm blew overYou left me aloneAnd I knew you could never be mine.Two days later I was toldYou didn’t want anything to do with meYou’re ashamed of meOf us and of that starless night.But what I couldn’t understand wasWhy you didn’t tell me yourself.James was a friend but after thatIt was never the sameI remember you touched me, it burntI pulled away from youYou spoke but apologizing didn’t mean anything.That was the day, I vowedThat id never let another hurt meThe way you did.Each day I saw youI sunk deeper and deeper within myselfWithdrawn and angryI blamed you for all my mistakes.A year past and people asked why?Why I hate you so much?What could I say?The truthNo, so I stayed silentBut the inevitable became.We were alone together, picking upMy bag I tried to leaveBut you spoke “Why?”Your voice so soft it broke meLooking at you I realizedYou didn’t even know.It’s strange that something should burn into my soulBut be lost in your mind.Tears running down my face I left.I cried that day,Pure tears flooded me.Sitting I rememberAnna yelling at you, telling you things long forgottenIn your heart and in your mind.Then it hit you,I could see the memory flood your brainPeople asked what it was all aboutBut you hid the secret from themAshamed of me again.I had loved you for2 years and 93 daysbut you didn’t even care enough to understand what you had done to me.The day drifted onFollowed by another and another.Until one day you stopped meAsking for a truths I knew I could never give.But I nodded needing to get away from you.Then you left and I knew I needed to grow up.You were the first to break my heart but not the lastBut you’re the only one who took my soul.So each day green eyes haunt meAnd every night starless skies cover me in a blanket of deceit...."