Hesitations

Hesitation, I don't know what I should do All the terrible things that I've been through Have jaded me against the feelings I want to feel I only hope that, at some time, this pain will heal I fell in love and was hurt because of it Now my sole belief is to not give a shit Cause if I don't care, I can't feel pain And then this rejection need not happen again But now there's one that I would like to love But this indecision is like a force pushing from above That is keeping me from reaching the spot Where I could feel this love that life had taught I want to reach out but the pain is too great Maybe this indecision has sealed my fate And forced me to live a life of loneliness Without you there to help me get through this I want to get close to you, but it's just too hard My other relationships have left me feeling barred From being able to care about you the way you do for me I'm broken, I'm flawed, please, can't you see?!? Oh god, why do I have to feel this way? Why is it that this pain's decided to stay? And now you see me hesitate and I see your pain Just like before, the hurt is happening again...There's a not quite so hidden message in this poem to those who've been hurt in love and seem hesitant to move on to people who actually care about them. Written November 12th, 2001 © on Nov 12 2001 02:02 PM PST   0 • 1