Those Summer Nights

I found that bracelet I had made especially for youWhile I was cleaning out my drawers today.I thought that you were my friendBut then we tried being lovers, For just one night,And it just didn’t work out.I liked you so muchAnd you kissed me with so much passion,I thought that maybe we could forget our differencesAnd make our feelings real, But I guess I was wrong. Two weeks since that nightWhen we decided to change our friendshipAnd now we barely talk.You smiled at me once todayAs you were walking past in the hot sunAnd I once thought I sawThat passion in your eyes,That same mystery from beforeBut as we said good-byeAnd I watched as you drove awayI realized that that was itAnd I’ll never see you againBecause in one night we changed everything;We went from beingFriends to lovers in a matter of minutes, And lovers to just mere acquaintices in the span of a day.I could once tell you everythingAnd now I’m luckyIf I can utter out the word “Hi.”But summer’s gone now, As is our friendship.The leaves are dying,The colors our fading;It’s too cold now for popsicles.And the field will soon be covered in snow,Pretty, white, virginal snowLike the type we once played inWhen we were younger.Sledding all day,Coming inside for an occasional hot chocolate break.Here in the city the snow isn’t as fresh.It’s muddy slushFull of dog peeAnd is a color far awayFrom anything resembling white.I walk by that hill that we sledded down togetherI wouldn’t let go of your arm As I contunied to slide down the hill, Laughing the whole time, Unaware that in such a short amount of timeMemories would be all that I would have.You kept me warm When the cold summer wind Began to blow,Wrapping your caring arms Around my shivering body.Didn’t you know then?How could you not?I had never felt safer Until that nightWith your arms around me,I knew nothing could ever go wrong.Didn’t you know, Didn’t you feel it too,The love between us both?How could you not have known?Ever since the beginning, When you stayed behind After everyone had leftHelping me cleanInstead of being out with your friends.Didn’t you feel it?Didn’t you feel something?Please don’t tell me That everything was all a lieThat you were just playing pretendWhen you kissed me that night,That night the stars shone brightlyAnd nothing else mattered.For one night we hadNo consequences to worry about,No walls holding us backFrom expressing the loveThat we had tried to hide for so long.And now it’s all overIt seems to be all that I have,Our night as lovers,What a perfect night it wasWhen all our inhibitionsSuddenly became imaginaryAnd everything we had felt for so longCould finally be realized.For one night everything was perfect, For one night me and youWere lovers, not friends,And nothing could hold us back.There’s nothing that I wouldn’t give To be able to tell you “I love you,”To kiss those lips one more timeBefore all the fall colors have changedBringing forth a time of coldness,Of nature dying And my cue to leave.And I will no longerWalk by that same field that we once played inWhen we were young And summer was full of long days that never ended.Soon I’ll be gone,Far away from this placeWhere I fell in love With my friendAnd innocent grade school crushesBecame a long lost memory.But despite the distanceI’ll never stop thinking about you.I’ll never forget all those Times you made me laughOn those hot summer daysAnd all our worries seemed far away. I’ll never forget howCombfortable you made me feel, Wrapped safely in your arms, On a cool summer night.How happy you made me,Just by entering a roomAnd smiling your great smileAnd looking at me with those beautiful brown eyes.I’ll never forget those happy summer daysWe spent together,Even if all our fun ended the day after we decided To become lovers.I know this is a long poem, but it's very personal to me and means a lot to me. I'd really appreciate any comments on it. Thanks:) Written October 23rd, 2001 © on Oct 23 2001 02:22 PM PST   18 • 0 • 8