Why I Am Afraid
By donnamarie
Why am I afraid? I don't want to be afraid. All that is in my past terrifies me. These hurdles hold me back. I thought my heart had mended, but I may have been naive. There are holes in my heart that i could fill with you. Sometimes you make me feel empowered. Sometimes you make me weak. I need your understanding. Some of me is left frail. But to show you my true strength, would be to reveal all. You're knocking at my door, giving me a second chance. Yet I am afraid of the hand that holds me. You take me for what you think I am, and never ask for more. But what am I? You are completely oblivious to the evil which surrounds me. Such a trusting heart. I am afraid that I'll scar it; with who I am, and all the tragedy I've faced. I'm protecting myself by protecting you. I don't know how to open up; I can't let myself be free. I can't allow the pain to be released upon you. Oh, for you to truly know me, and still to care! It would be blissful to lose myself in you...i know that certain lines may sound contradictory when placed so close to each other, but that is the whole point. it was a very confusing situation to be in. Written November 5th, 2001 © on Nov 05 2001 08:11 AM PST 0 • 8
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