donnamarie

"you tried and you liedtoo fastnow too slowwalls and fallsmisdeeds undone -redone plus oneheart in your throatmine in my stomachethe gap has spreadwhat was there - now deadmistakes will hauntfill the a..."

"You convinced yourself he loved you to clear your sinful soul of your blasphemous deeds But now you are free. Your conscience had left you - for better or worse because you used and abused her, broke ..."

"I must admit my guilt:I am a thought criminal.And many a crimehave I committed.The limitless freedomof a mind unhinged.This is what they fear most.Breaking from their iron-clad mold.Big Brother wants ..."

"this is my soliloquy; written to the best of my ability. of anthems and tantrums, of angels and devils, and the paradox between, like the love which makes me bleed. Written October 4th, 2001 © on Oct..."

"please, my liteflicker no more.help me to fite,and teach me to soar.please, little lite,i need you to see;beyond my plitehow life could be.please, sweet lite,quiet my head.fill my dreams toniteas i fa..."

"i'll make it,i know i will.but will i lose myselfand all that i knowalong the journey?will i single-handedlydestroy all that i've built?will i break down;become what they want,become who they are?do i..."

"Gaze into the mirror.Do you have a reflection?I've found your soulto be a fallacy.you prated your lovewith your rhetoric.You stultified my heartand all my feelings for you.And to think I doted you;Mis..."

"i am what people perceive me to be. if all you perceive me to be is your own ideals, and not mine; you lock me up inside a cage. because i am what you perceive me to be, i will never be free, unless y..."

"What he did was wrong,and everyone knows it.Yet you don't condemn him.If you do, you don't show it.He thought my body was a toy.One that he could play with at his will.I screamed and I fought,but he s..."

"i write you poems in the dark, hoping to ignite a spark that will forever be a flame. Written October 5th, 2001 © on Oct 05 2001 11:23 AM PST   10 • 0 • 8"

"how could you do that to me? how could you ditch me there? you came with me, you slept with her. i was forgotten and ignored, cause she's a stupid whore. she's a vacuum cleaner, and you're a mindless ..."

"pen on paper as hands on keys like sword through flesh on my love it feeds Written October 8th, 2001 © on Oct 08 2001 11:16 AM PST   10 • 0 • 1"

"My beautiful atheist angel. I don't know how you hide your wings behind your eyes of hazel. You carry on your lips, as you speak with the tongue of a poet. Your charming, adoring smile, and your war..."

"You see the beauty in me. What does this mean? You see the strength in me. What does this mean? You see the kindness in me. What does this mean? You've found the weakness in me. You know what I mean...."

"Jump high, Bang the sky. They say,     "Dream your dreams       and then achieve.       Run with them       as far as you can." And then, go to bed and dream again. Written October 8th, 2001 © on..."

"Why must it be so bad?     Why must I feel so sad?     Why must you feel so nice?     Why must love be my vice? Please don't dry my tears for they only wash away my fears. Please don't stare into ..."

"i see my life unravelingright before my eyes.there's nothing left to believe.all they spew are lies.all the people come and go,through my life,like ariver they flow.constant change ravages you,when yo..."

"i need to prioritize.my heador my heart?did you really give?what did i gain?i've known myself.i've had my strength.i don't want your pity.i wanted your love.i wanted you.i'm not another half.i'm whole..."

"strip the memories from the shelf. burn the pages of my mind. shred the notes you wrote me. crumple the promises discovered to be empty. stomp out the flame i burned for you. crush the heart that..."

"the more i'm convinced there is no god,the more i ask,  'Why?'disbelief because of sciencedisbelief because of consciencedisbelief because of truthtruth makes me angryanger makes me hateagnosticism i..."

"coercionsubversionspieslieswho cares who dies?manifestaiton of evilwiped awayby the very same meansjustification yieldsunificationsave our babiesand kill our sonsno need to blink,what's done is done.l..."

"wave your flags,march in the streets.at the bomb's first strikeyou'll cry for retreat.don't give any thought,just shoot to kill.it's for everyone's rightsbut not our free will.blindly we followand bli..."

"He did not see me when he opened his eyes. He did not call me when he spoke. He did not hear me when I said. He did not notice when I cried. He did not hesitate when he lied. So, as i reached out, he ..."

"killing you the ambiguity. which words have the power to make your heart break? the giving is draining. love seeps through your veins. true love. it is not necessity. it is. Written October 19th, ..."

"I treat him like shit.One day I will hithim in the face with my shoe.Make his eyes black and blue.Throw a punch, I'll break his nose.Here comes the blood;Now he will doze.i have a sick sense of humor,..."

"dear you,i don't know if i love you.  i only know that i care.  please don't ask me to love you.  all i know is that i miss you.  i miss the safety you bring.  i miss your laugh and your eyes. why doe..."

"lemniscapeis where i createthe songs i singand this love i bringit distracts the othersas the teacher hoversmy secrets i hidefor they cause a divide.the reason that this is funny is because i wrote it..."

"the waves breakmy heartwill ache - ing in my headis full of dreamsto be realizedthat it meant nothing.i realize this is a bit abstract, so i hope someone gets this... it is another one of my calculus ..."

"my cocky,little buddha style.  rub my belly, i'll tell you secrets... Written October 23rd, 2001 © on Oct 23 2001 10:56 AM PST   10 • 0 • 14"

"It took another to make me appreciate your love. It took another for me to mourn your kiss. It took another for me to comprehend the cliche. It took another to find my true heart. It took another to s..."

"i wish i couldtake away all the nightmaresand all the pain.i wish i couldend the struggleand stop the fights.i wish i couldpick up the piecesand put them back together.i wish i couldquiet the voicesan..."

"If I start,I cannot stop.I will turn outjust like all the rest.Do not make their mistakes.Do not make the same mistake twice.Do not trust,or my heart will break.Do not say, 'No!'They won't listen, any..."

"she is still as a moment.delirioulsy she moans.only the sordidaching and sweatcould tear her from the eternitywhich now stood between themhave no idea where this came from, at all. Written November 3r..."

"I'm paralyzed down here.My chin resting on my knees.the cold wood floorunderneath my naked feet.As the tremors beginthe dangerous impulses engulf mewith every quivering, pathetic sobas the river of te..."

"The rain on my skinand the lightning in my eyesClear the troubles from my weary head.The booming of the thunder,Nature's heart beat,is so soothing to my ears.It entices my senses.The scent fills me an..."

"Why am I afraid? I don't want to be afraid. All that is in my past terrifies me. These hurdles hold me back. I thought my heart had mended, but I may have been naive. There are holes in my heart tha..."

"The abuser becomes the abused. Irony is beautiful. You lay there as they play “This is Your Life”. The abuser becomes the abused. Mom waited 30 years to say those words without the threat of your ha..."

"I’m sorry I’m a bitch. I’m sorry I’m bitter. I’m sorry my emotions are validated. I’m sorry I’m scared. I’m sorry I’m scarred. I’m sorry I’ve lost touch. I’m sorry I’m grieving. I’m sorry I cry. I’m s..."

"Going out tonite, And I’m gonna feel alrite. Going out tonite, And I’m gonna get a bite. Going out tonite, And gettin’ drunk I mite. Meeting pretty boys… Hey, get into the funk! Meeting pretty boys… ..."

"With the Assassins I hope to unite. With them I shall fight closed-mindedness (is that a word?) and prejudice. With our mad poetry skills we shall fight the social ills, which plague some minds; their..."

"i made your red nose from a triangle of points. your smile is bright and brings a grin to my face. should I pierce? it’s the best that I’ve drawn. your eyebrow looks plucked, guess I should fix it. p..."

"is it so bad to want to move on?is it so bad to want to hold on?is it so badto want the pain to dissipate?is it so wrongto enjoy his company?is it so wrong to wallow in conversation?is it so wrong to ..."

"Why do I think about you?Do I miss you?What do I miss?You make me angryand frustrated.You are insensitiveand dull.Unremarkably remarkably intelligent.Insanity doesn't begin to describe your split pers..."

"The princess.The gifted.The strong.The quiet.I am weak.I am young.I am hopeful.I am hopeless.The disciplined.The responsible.The cute.The smart.I am timid.I am learned.I am naive.I am trained.i am sur..."

"green candlesshow how little you know.i am not the sweet-scented,delicate floweryou wish me to be.i amthe rose's thorn.nor do i giggle and dote.i am directand make my voice be heard.i am not coyand do..."

"i want it alli want it all back.we used to laugh,we used to cry,together.rooms full of love.we were home.i want it alli want it all back.where did it gohave we grown aparti want the love.i want the se..."

"i cry beneath your languidshadow.i am luscious.yes.i am luscious.the mistlooming over youcould rustyou bare skin.still your diamond eyesshine.onlyeternitymay nevertell...i'm obsessed with eternity lat..."

"i thought it would get better.i thought good would prevail.but the devil will not die.the Phoenix rises from his cigarette ash.as the days go on,the hours get longer,but the monthstake years to pass.t..."

"if i was not alone,why did they ignore the note?scotch tape forcing itto cling onto my door.it was still wetafter i bathed itwith my tears.i waited for three eternities,hoping they couldcare enough to..."

"where do i go from here?do i continue to survive    merely to earn the pride      invested in me?shall i placate their fears    of failure and irresponsibility?or is it time for selfishness    and s..."

"assign the role for this girl. assigne her role in this world. makes her one forces her many loses herself but pleases the others cheats herself because she plays by their rules. committing no sins, s..."

"Why do i always want what i can't have? I always find far to be better than near. I struggle to reach for it and them. I don't think the grass is necessarily greener, just a little shorter and a ..."

"they are just ink on paper metamorphosed into emotions and rebellion. this voice shall be heard. "the silent masses" no more. the fingers strumon the heart-strings of the confused, direction anorexic ..."

"i'm broken. he's won. i don't know how to love. i'm broken. he's won. i'm still a crying dove. i'm broken. he's won. all i know are push and shove. i'm broken. he's won. i'll never begin to trust. ..."

"Somewhere the heat’s gone broken. Somewhere a girl is screaming. Somewhere a noose hangs full. Somewhere there’s a cardboard mansion. Somewhere she has no shoes. Somewhere they’re lost and the en..."

"Thanks for the sundae. I long for the boring, do-nothing nights. I miss your car, the first or the second. I miss the parking lot, my ass-print on the hood. We ran through the aisles, and I’d scar..."

"“Your words are your tears.” He said with a grin. “They are the rainbow inside you.” Then he poured the gin. “Might as well accept this part of you” as he turned his face away. “It will make you an a..."

"I'm not revealing justification, only motives and themes: Theatre de Vampyres: where we acted and played. every day was night. he never let the sun rise. he was nocturnal, yet tortured us by dayl..."

"Daddy. He didn't want me to be a slut like he said my sister was. Daddy. He taught me lots of things; like i'm a worthless girl. Daddy. Although he hit my brother and sister, he never laid a hand on..."

"WARNING: I am not male-bashing here. Not unless you are God or a sexual predator, rapist, etc. I'm trying to connect the effect that religious teaching has on the treatment of women with rape and a..."