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it's okay to take that long journey in search of something that you want, and then when you finally have what you want standing right in front of you, it's okay to not want it anymore and completely reject it, it's the walk that's more important, i want to rid myself of that fear that most people operate on, it's the secret to being alone, i walk into oblivion not expecting anything from the world, why should it expect anything of me, a bunch of people wanting the same thing isn't justice, they're hunting, once you've broken down the walls it's hard not to see right through them, once you've tasted the hand of God, it's hard to forget it, once you've seen the invisible force of God, it's hard not to see it, looking through my window at the world humming, should i open the shades today, should i close them and stay inside not wanting the world, spinning my webs, i dont intend to trap anything that isnt stupid enough to get trapped, look at these animals grazing, it's because it hurts that you wish to forget it and give the impression to yourself and the world that you are not in pain, how foolish, but yeah it feels good, and i understand the drift, i understand intentions, pet them and theyll love you, ignore them and theyll love you, self destruct and they will love you, youre not yours to give yourself what you think is best, youre not yours to figure out the meaning of yourself, dont chase after imaginary finish lines, the track is infinite, dont bury things until theyre dead, and even then dont bury them, reflect with me, watch with me, die with me. Written December 28th, 2001 © on Dec 28 2001 06:30 AM PST, midnite_raver   0 • 10