midnite raver

"i feel so good, all alone, i save the world, from the cold, i taste the sun, makes me whole, i like my shade, with my souls, drowning with the reasons for a purpose, who are all these faces on these ..."

"im intrigued by simpleness, i think without writing, or write without thinking, but im in my own world, neither safe nor in danger, stuck in the soft play of alphabetical categorizing, what a waste of..."

"all of passion, all of pearls, mass destruction of a world, so much safer to be safe, id rather die than be awake, over easy on a plate, to end the search for something great, in reflection, in revers..."

"in the summer of my life, i know that i am not forever, wilts are phases passing by, the still of sunsets saying goodbye, to shine again tomorrow, the stir of quiet loneliness, a peaceful form of empt..."

"anything that comes to mind, keeps me from oncoming traffic, 4.5 billion years, it's no wonder i'm so restless, chocolate melts in boredom, 2 miles a day with vitamins, staples, what a waste, of an ho..."

"more time for me, more time to breathe, more time to see, more time to think, more time to fall, more time to cry, more time to feel, more time to die, more time to dull, more time to waste, more time..."

"i will not be part of a world that destroys itself, only God can destroy, we can only mimic, not enough sleep, goodbye. Written October 26th, 2001 © on Oct 26 2001 07:54 AM PST, midnite_raver   0 • ..."

"children keep truth alive, she wants rings, not love, just as long as her world can still be flat, and she can still be afraid of the dark, im the madman who turns on lights, the one who doesnt talk, ..."

"tell me about the sky you couldn't love,tell me about the secret part of you,show me how to see with my eyes closed,tell me how it feels to never feel,tell me about the purpose of your heart,tell me a..."

"i talk to myself, all of my friends are imaginary, i will never understand all the forces that have created me, f*ck writing, i love bottles more, there are already so many walls built around you by o..."

"hey loser, God says to look both ways before crossing the street, the walls talk back, they say i'm not insane, but i need a cure, everything is blue when i cant remember anything from five minutes ag..."

"high, in the sky, she flies like nothing, and uses words like i cannot, my imaginary floors will never know those eyes, she decomposes in my mind, i wish i could too, i feel like someone she loves, sh..."

"notebooks are gods meant to send you far away, im tired of spinning around in circles and making myself sick, i just want to stand still for a while, every road seems to lead to a dead end, i close my..."

"painted walls, shopping malls, rusted guitar strings, beautiful things, windows feel, sitting still, quietly, warming me, shadows play, from far away, i finger trace, a strangers face, i dream awak..."

"sweet herb of God, inhale me, leave me intricate, infinite, perpetually insane, with sad smiles, i want to imagine i am words wanting to come to life, i don’t want to hear telephones, a highway of dro..."

"who is this pulling my strings? push me with the waves, with the sky, with uncontrolling laughter, i am your child, who am i to chase myself, i am not mine to chase myself, breathing and alive, in my ..."

"gutterball,im bouncing off the walls,heres my song,im nothing after all,im so sad,it really makes me mad,im not here,my shadow has no fear,gutterball,she makes me feel so small,nothings wrong,cause i ..."

"purple doctor p,snickers wannabe,poser and she smokes,yellow flower ghost,purple, purple cape,weak sauce, needs mean face,snuggle, blue shirt fiend,schizo, liquor queen,purple, purple skies,small hand..."

"triss, my imaginary love, what if all the time ran away, where would i go today, they say it looks pretty ugly outside, if they could only see what it looks like in here, i promise not to stop, or let..."

"and it makes me think, where do all lines meet? talking to my sleep, it seems, it destroys my head, lying to my bed, everyone pretends, it said. Written December 5th, 2001 © on Dec 05 2001 07:46 AM ..."

"in a simple far off land, all ringers are off, and im so far away from everyone i smile, in a simple far off land, i read books and people, and i smile at a creature smiling back at me, in a simple ..."

"we were gods, we were God's. Written December 7th, 2001 © on Dec 07 2001 03:17 AM PST, midnite_raver   0 • 10"

"i stare, do i really need all these colors? “we dont believe in nothing lebowski”, shes beautiful, i stare, because i cannot stop looking, i found that line everyone talks about, ice cold is best, i s..."

"with shiny fingers, ripples reflect for me, everyone becomes an echo of themselves, not sure if they are real, green paper says in god we trust, but they dont worship it, and i am not sarcastic, i don..."

"life with sheep, all asleep, makes me weep, watching sheep, as they sleep, makes me weep, counting sheep, trapped in sleep, makes me weep, f*ckin sheep, deep in sleep, makes me weep, f*ckin sheep,..."

"sarah,-tone-in light, blue envy sky, shields of contentment, in a modern world, i am on another planet, speaking another language, watching people watch me, on modern streets, with modern souls swallo..."

"she tames me, makes me, with fluids and stares, my goddess, my obsession, my chinese addiction, if she only knew, the things i would do, to make her mine forever, your taste, your skin, your smell, yo..."

"twenty one, does it get worse? does it get better? im still a child, im still a boy, as lost as ive ever been, with tired eyes, and endless thought after thought, endless dream after dream, will i eve..."

"i like to imagine that there is more, away from life and everything, it’s so dull when something shines without passion, and the way there, well, who knows? i love silence, and stupid talk, where are ..."

"i am reborn, and i realize that there's really nothing to be afraid of, why do people hurt one another? in other news, i want to be alone even though i dont want to, i want to be great, i want to..."

"it's okay to take that long journey in search of something that you want, and then when you finally have what you want standing right in front of you, it's okay to not want it anymore and completely r..."

"asleep, awake, afraid, alone. Written December 31st, 2001 © on Dec 31 2001 03:54 AM PST, midnite_raver   0 • 10"

"they run away, they scatter, ive never seen them live, but ive seen them die, they smile and they laugh, but ive never seen them happy, they run away, they scatter. Written December 31st, 2001 © o..."

"without reasons, i drive, without purpose, i dream, without drive, i reason, without dreams, i have no purpose. Written December 31st, 2001 © on Dec 31 2001 04:46 AM PST, midnite_raver   0 • 10"

"inside clocks, what is emptiness, fake feelings, smiles chasing me asleep, i cannot become awake, trying makes it harder, forgotten, like yesterdays conversation, lips and complication, become somethi..."

"i can see sunsets with my eyes closed, before thought can reach me, i turn onto wrong streets, and find my way home, there are not enough words to feel safe, but that is why it rains, i forget what i..."

"eureka (exclamation mark), red is blue, there are statues in a garden, always in the spotlight, we are statues in a garden, always in the spotlight, i forget i have a mind, i forget i was talking, i f..."

"she draws pictures in crayon, and calls me, 323-514-8472, “hi, this is god’s phone, sorry he cant answer your call right now, but if you leave me a message, ill make sure that he gets it, and ill have..."

"distilled pictures, creating softer interpretations, while she waits for more, with empty eyes, conquered by loneliness destroying smiles, shining armor rusted from neglect, selling souls for attentio..."

"if i could just, spin, spin, run, run, if i could just, run, and, run, and, if i could just, spin, and, spin, then, i would all the time, if i could just, go, go, drown, drown, if i could just, drown..."

"decomposing, with my liver, twenty one year old f*ck-ups have the most fun, whats my electrical output? five to six minutes, rotating once, give me my antiseptics and prescriptions, my new addictions,..."

"away, when it glitters too soon, and the new full moon, is blinding me, destroy the man waiting at the bus stop, he is quieter than the rest, i am safer in my bed, away from stock market crashes and i..."

"i like sunsets, and cold dark places, coming out of myself, when i am afraid and out of water, standing still is like breathing, i can do both without trying, im seeing everything as an echo of itself..."

"the days take their time with me, as i uncover secrets, i stand alone, and rule the world, they go, and they come, but i stay, im here, forever, there are many faces, there are many sides, to smiles..."

"these lights do not amuse me, words are useless, they grow old and die, radiating infinity, complicate the day, awake and go mad, find the spaces in between all truth and lies, we are thoughts becomin..."

"i destroy them with crayons, while destroying all the lines, how come people in their bmw’s arent smiling? lets thrive on wine, cow, and conversation, feeding birds, drowning from lack of flight, i sm..."

"what does it become? when time is slow i can trace God’s hands, it almost feels too good, they were pictures just like me, wading in the reflections of better suns, it comes to destroy unhappiness, li..."

"its been sunny for days, and id rather be composing than doing anything else, a small blackbird bathes himself in a puddle of water, for reasons i do not know, he could care less that i walk by, but i..."

"it hasnt gone anywhere, where will we drive? i closed my eyes and said nothing, it was silent in my mind, scattered images of right now, i cant feel i think or think i feel, but the walls are decaying..."

"a satellite man, tying his own hands, burning his own ships, pretending he lives, a broken woman, trying in her head, jumping from buildings, searching for feelings, the world is bleeding, their sou..."

"and so she wants a diamond ring, but i think her soul is worth much more than that, why do they want to grow old and die so fast? she grabs onto anything that breaks her fall, im glad im not the one s..."

"inspired by the sun, to shine for everyone, my life away from life, reminding me insane. Written February 15th, 2002 © on Feb 15 2002 06:14 AM PST, midnite_raver   0 • 10"

"imagining i am that which cannot be destroyed, man cannot handle power, is it God that they put their trust in or exchange rates? they are the source of their own demise, the fluidity of worth, in a f..."

"goodnight, sweet dreams, close your eyes, i'll be there when you wake, so long, goodbye, i really hope that i'll be seeing you again, hold on, dont go, theres so many things i didnt say to you, i l..."

"spider, i will destroy you if you get in my way, what do you do when everyone in the whole world sucks? i stay quiet with nothing to say, and become unhappy. Written February 22nd, 2002 © on Feb 22 2..."

"im going crazy in my car, its not so bad at all, my world, my windows, my music, makes perfect sense, i think i forgot how to write, my stomach explodes because i cannot, i just cry like a pathetic lo..."

"i could see it in your eyes, all your shit and all your lies, and i dont know how to feel for one who doesnt feel, now theres nothing in my way, and your more like a disease, i suffer when you feed, ..."

"with the birds, flying away, with these words, going astray, emotionless, motionless, the poison of fun, the poison of one too shallow to drown, in timeless motion, waiting to jump, rescue me from s..."

"on an endless road called calmness i drive alone with mozart the art of soothing that which i did not need more speed on a highway to self destruction Written March 4th, 2002 © on Mar 04 2002 05:06 A..."

"and now it makes sense, i was wrong because i was wrong, to my eyes, to my face, there can be so much destruction, like flies on shit, you only mattered when you were still important to me, but i forg..."