Unattainable
By mystyblu1
I have a problem, only want what I can't get, men who are lovingly called, unattainable. He is nineteen, beautiful body, charming wit, lives across the county, has a girlfriend, unattainable. He is thirty-one, a semi-celebrity, I send emails, post messages, nothing but silence. His life is busy, filled with things I cannot share, Will he ever take the time, to respond, get to know me, I don't think so. Unattainable. The list goes on and on, weaving its way through my torn soul, why do I want them? some have whispered in the halls, by the water cooler, "low self-esteem", I laugh at that, my esteem is fine, but my fear is real. An unattainable simply means never having to experience, the horror of rejection face to face. As one who bears the scars of witnessing the look in a man's eyes, of total dislike, disgust, dismay that my presence has dared disturb their perfect world, I choose the unattainable. But in the lonely moments of a long day, I wish to have my unattainable hold me in his arms, shut out the noises of the world, but all I really have is silence. Unattainables don't exist in the reality of my life, only in the sanctuary of my mind. Written November 8th, 2001 © on Nov 08 2001 12:32 PM PST 0 • 1
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