An Honorable Way

Saw those pixels I formed.. Dilate. And thought to myself, How it’s all falling apart. I once said, “I fear the falling of the pieces” But that fear.. That anticipation.  Gone.. Now, Just a cloud of so many emotions.. Pulling me, Every which way. And I’m waiting, For something to give way. To take a break, From this havoc. My eyes close But the picture of your face.. Remains. Leave me.. crying.. on my side. Stuck in my skin Clawing away.. Gotta get out.. Under the surface Like the itch i can’t scratch I’d rather feel your blood.. On my hands.. Rather take this road. A crossroads. I see the one, With all the hills, And all the traps. Go ahead..  Follow me here.. I’ll do anything to get you.. Out of my sight. Throw the scabbard off to the side After this fight.. It has no purpose. No purpose..  look in the mirror. Stab in.. Tear up, Down.. Left, then right.. This was an honorable way so long ago.. So instead of plunging into the future Which holds even more hate.. I’ll plunge back into the past. There’s more pain But only for a few fleeting moments.. See the fire in my eyes fade And feel my once warm and loving arms.. Turn to ice. This would happen no matter what Just know.. I wish it hadn’t come to this... Written March 31st, 2002 © on Mar 31 2002 03:26 AM PST   18 • 0 • 10