Pool of Blood

These feelings I cannot describe They consume me Shutting doors behind me Running through my life Falling.. Hurting.. This blood spurts from my mouth Coughing.. Choking... This pool of red drowns me My own pool is killing me My own life-line.. choking me Hindering me from movement Holding me back from the light Light that holds me close It keeps me warm It kills the cold in my heart Ice... It travels through my veins Killing me.. second by second Reaching my mind bit by bit Intruding with its cold fingers Closing my eyes... I take in a deep breath A scream of pain and agony escapes My eyes open! They turn red with rage Fire... Burning through my veins Hot lava singing my nerves Tears of pain well up in my eyes... I cannot blink The fire is too strong Clenching my fists.. Tensing my muscles... Gritting my teeth.. Glaring my eyes... Breathing heavily... I take one look at the one.. The one I love.. One embrace.. Wings sprout from my shoulders Encompassing all those dear to me Moving my wings for the first time.. It is painful..  but I smile in its face I smile in the face of my pain Muscles form quickly... They become larger..  stronger.. I look directly into the bright sun Tense my muscles once more.. One quick release of pure energy I leave my drowning pool in my wake.. I leave it for you It stays in my past It awaits in your future My pool no more.. It will be yours You’ll fall... Hurt.. Cough.. Choke.. Drown.. Feel the ice running through your body The lonely cold holding you down Your choice.. Sprout wings and leave with your loved ones Or... Stay and drown in your blood Drag all of your loved ones under the surface with you Kill them along with you If you sprout wings Look for me.. I will be alongside stars Holding their light close to my heart Fending off the Ice.. Killing the cold Saving those who I care for Look for the stars And you will find me You will find me... Living..  in a life A life with a meaning A life..  without suffering A life..  without heartache Living for once.. Written September 17th, 2001 © on Sep 17 2001 01:20 PM PST   18 • 0 • 12