Ashes

These ashes form once more.. From past midnight fires Fires that fought off the cold... Now this ice forms in my heart once more.. All my hope is dying All my sorrow.. returning Searching for more wood To make a fire To hold close to my heart To fend off the icy numb within Reaching in the dark... Something is found.. Placing it close to me Pulling fire from my mind... Warming this kindling.. Another person comes near.. Holding a torch She looks in my eyes Full of care and sympathy in her heart The fire starts again I bring it close to me The closer to the fire I come The closer I come to this form She brings me close to her.. This fire rises in my heart Killing off any traces of cold Thoughts of love fill my soul They fill this hole in my heart Finally..  one to join me in my travels This fire now burns eternal There is no need for external happiness Internally... the warmth grows... Caressing this..  Hoping once more.. My hope lives again My happiness lives once more A small smile comes forth My eyes soften I look at her once more Noticing..  the beauty The inner shine in her eyes A glistening smile Making my heart grow and fill.. Not a word is spoken.. And we put out the fire.. Not needing it anymore.. This internal fire burns I depend on fuel no more This love is unending And it feeds my newfound warmth Written September 18th, 2001 © on Sep 18 2001 01:33 PM PST   18 • 0 • 8