Held In

Can’t just go And get away Can’t clear my mind I’m held in by resent On the molecular.. I’m full of hatred And on the spiritual I’m simply tainted.. Stained and covered By all my own impurities Which society has created.. And grafted to my mind Can’t just go And get away Can’t clear my mind I’m held in by idiocy Can’t even tell they’re.. Killing me By bringing up my past.. My past.. Can’t not forget it all And force it all back Making me think of it all Making myself shake in hate Adrenaline’s pumping high Veins bulging and they’re gonna burst Eyes glaring..  burning up Fire covering my skin.. Oh I’ve felt this before Dont doubt my hatred Dont doubt my anger towards you.. And dont think I can’t push away Pushing it all away.. Little do you know I’m part of your benefit Little do you see..  nearby With every moment of blindness With every word of venom With every raised voice I hear.. My ability to ignore falls lower You wonder why I’m like this? I wish I could laugh at that shit! But how am I gonna laugh? When tears cover my face.. How are you gonna act.. Like you’ve got all the answers When I know and feel more.. How’re you gonna keep me under your wing? Keep holding on.. This’ll get worse and worse If you try and keep me here And you’ll be lost in darkness Written November 4th, 2001 © on Nov 03 2001 11:20 PM PST   10 • 0