I Wont Stop

These tears of blood drip down my face Kneeling in the downpour.. The red drifts off in small tendrils Going where it pleases.. Opening my eyes, I feel the pain.. Cut and bruised, all on my inside.. Words and stares, cutting through me Pushing through my shield..  I’m losing.. The cold wind covering my skin.. Shivering and crying in the rain again.. Hasn’t this happened before? Haven’t I gone through this routine? Holding a blade against my skin.. I want so badly to rip through And feel my life pour away onto the ground.. To see the scarlet wine flow once more.. Cant bring myself.. To bring the blade through.. So I give it to you Hand me..  My soul Sitting here in small children’s homes.. They are absent, gone.. How long are they gone? Gone long enough for you to take it.. You’ve got it in your hands Tears on your face..  Compassion? No..  Happiness..  Get rid of your hate Get rid of me.. Take my life, isn’t it for the better? Take me away from this world Do I belong here? I think not..  I know not.. Oh I’ve waited for this spectacle so long Your arms raise..  Poising the blade.. Hot tears and a radiant smile infest your face Little do you know..  You’re not the only.. Grimacing, I jump up! I WONT STOP! Another blade appears from my hand Outstretching my arm..  Slash.. Good-bye beautiful face You’re scarred now..  Just like me Stab..  Hello another scar and shard of pain.. I WONT STOP! Back and forth like wild-fire.. My arms fly across your body Ripping and tearing away at your..  beauty Taking away your, happiness.. Empty and heartless, can you be more? Can you be less?  Neither..  You’re the same.. Ill take your life away before mine.. Can you handle the pain?  No..  So you go first.. Written October 21st, 2001 © on Oct 21 2001 12:41 PM PST   10 • 0