Inner Scars

I trekked out into the forest Just to realize we had come here too... Couldn’t there be one place on this scarred earth... That we haven’t scarred with our self-hate? Traveling along my veins brings me closer.. Drawing along my life-line with my finger So fragile.. All could be lost in one second... Salvation out of my reach And tears filling up my soul Wash away the pain with ignorance Yet my cravings still remain Temptation rips my heart apart As I stare into the mirror.. Visions of my pain brought to life.. Open my eyes to new threats I watch the red lines grow across my forearms.. And feel the cold steel penetrate... Ill readily hand you the blade And ask you to take away..  What has been given.. Theres no point to returning.. Since the land is scorched with humanity And the perspective gives us a new idea.. Of purity..  which is a bold faced lie.. Candles illuminate what we cannot see Through daylight.. Our shadows hide our promises And the truth is too far away The falling of the sun brings night to my eyes.. The worst pain comes.. When the reason is blind So give me a reason... Paint my pain across my body.. Lying naked in the corner Vulnerable and weak Nothing is left... My soul even holds hate for me Betrayal can’t live for long.. But neither can I.. So I lay in the corner... A small breath escapes my lips And my heart beats slowly... My life goes farther and farther away With every second I think of you The scars I’ve given myself.. Will match yours someday But who says I can’t beat you.. Humanity..  I can take away more than you can dream.. I can take away.. I can rid myself of this pain But who’s to say.. I wont hold the blade back.. Written January 5th, 2002 © on Jan 05 2002 01:25 PM PST   18 • 0 • 10