My Brother...

I pulled the covers above my head.. And cried some silent tears So long ago.. Because of your deceit Were you even worth my tears? And are you now? My blood... My brother..  You lied.. It’s not like much hope is left.. And if anything is.. May I ask you where? But your distorted vision cant even see the mirror.. There’s too many drugs down your throat.. And Into your lungs, To even remember your name. Yet you ask remembrance? Your words are silent and never spoken.. And it’s been almost a year Since I’ve seen your face.. Before me Yet I wonder.. If I looked in your mouth Would i uncover a mystery... Such as a forked tongue? Or something much more.. Were those unscathed angels wings.. I saw burst from your shoulders, Just an illusion? Or have you fallen from the sky.. A tortured demon.. Drinking from his flask And inhaling the poisoned smoke of hell.. I had searched for you at one time.. Dragged my feet through the hot coals and ashes Climbed the mountains of charred souls Just to reach your cavern.. Only to see you fly out the second I saw your red eyes Now I stare into the charred sky of middle earth.. The fiery pillars of lighting fall into chambers on filth And my heart hopes one will catch you at a weak moment.. My Brother..  you are gone.. A piece of my heart came out of my chest.. As my dirty tears fell to the ground Were you there to catch them? Only the ashes upon the scarred surface caught the moisture.. Nothing was ever expected.. While there was so much to give.. But it still wasnt enough So fly away on your empty wings of glass.. Drink from your flask Inhale the smoke of hell I’d love to see your grave.. And your empty eyes on the surface I’d love to drink your blood.. And piss it right out of existence I’d love to hate you with all my heart.. And then take away everything you’ve got By brother..  I hate loving you.. A single set of steps in the sand reminds me of you And how you strayed back into the forest.. To hide from the sun and waves Forget our bond.. Forget me, your brother Forget everything I ever said My blood is yours no longer.. Written January 30th, 2002 © on Jan 30 2002 12:51 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1