That Horrible

Another crowd.. Another day.. I hadn’t seen much different yet Except that set of eyes.. Dark and intriguing However full of light It seems like God had placed stars in those pupils.. And in a passing glance, something was shared A cloud forms my mind.. And I try and figure if any hope is held A guess is given.. The same as the others..  none.. Never was held in a moment of purity For thoughts of another were always apparent.. In the others stare Am I really that horrible? Not perfect. Nothing close to it.. Still cant understand why, Nothing has happened..  if it should.. And those words have been spoken before With all the attention I could muster upon them But why so long a wait.. For something said to have come soon? I see hate in that mirror staring back at me And it seems like that cannot be myself.. How did I become this horrid.. How did my soul seep through my skin.. A black orchid rises through the ice The last whisper of winter.. I miss the cold..  somewhat Since at least then, it kept my skin numb The sun heats my body up.. And gives me more temptation than before I can feel this pain coming once more Please.. help me survive.. Fly my way.. Your downy feathered wings envelope me With a cool blast of air I’m back to normal..  I guess.. The blue sky prophesizes that more is on its way Sweet angel..  stay with me.. Dont fly away once more Am I that horrible? If so.. Then leave me to my devices.. For I’ll forget all the hope that was ever held dear If so.. Forget I’m here.. If its that horrible And my skin turns green with fear And these once green eyes become decayed.. Leave.. Find something worthy of your embrace I’ll hide beneath the mountains Never to show my face.. And to forget this ever happened.. Written February 26th, 2002 © on Feb 26 2002 12:11 PM PST   10 • 0 • 1