News? What News?(Challenge Winner!)

Hi There! What news? I AM GOING TO DIE, not something to tell when they ask how you are doing. Wasting away, The pain of my skin disappearing, My fat melting, My smile becoming a grimace of torture. I AM GOING TO DIE, not something you announce to the whole world. Trying to walk into a room and still feel vibrant. Seeing my brothers smiling with false sincerity. Entering the hospital the first time, Dreading the outcome. I AM GOING TO DIE, not something to whisper in anothers ear lovingly. The waiting for a solid good sign. Watching children play in the snow. Wishing That I Still Could. Seeing myself in their eyes. I AM GOIng to die, something you wish never to have to say. Taking all my money and blithering it away on the things I Love. Eating chocolate until I can EAT NO MORE. Buying fresh cut flowers, just for the smell. Smiling as I say hello. I AM Going to die, something to discuss rationally. Sitting down to a large meal with my family. Having a tickle fight with my little cousins. Playing monster to their elephant. I Am going to die, A welcoming admission, but not of guilt. Feeling the sun on my face, warming my skin. Playing on a beach with a dog, fetch. Having my seventh margarita and not caring if I have had too MANY. I am going to die. Today. Next Year. Tomorrow. But I have REALLY lived.For my Mother...With Love And Affection....1959-1998...I miss you Written March 13th, 2002 © on Mar 13 2002 10:40 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1