I Feel it Coming (Dedicated to Bigmammajen and Everyone Who Is Kind Enough to Care)

And now it is time for me to lay down again, Breathe deeply again, Rest again upon a bed I have not felt in days. And for what? To wake up and do it again? To feel even more pain in the nightmares that haunt me? And yet... I am peaceful in this midway slumber. I know that tomorrow will be less than terrible, Which isn't much to look forward to, Yet I am expected to sleep it away and rush again another day. For what? So the bright sun can shine vigorously in my sensitive eyes? So they can rant and tease and call me names... As if it were some kind of endless game? Maybe you're right and I should ignore them, But could you? Do you have any idea what it's like? And now it is time for me to lay down again, Breathe deeply again, Rest again upon a bed I have not felt in days. And for what? To wake up and do it again? To feel even more pain in the nightmares that haunt me? And yet... I am peaceful in this midway slumber, Alone and forever never bothered, Until I wake up, And take upon me another day... But I will be victorious... Otherwise I would not be able to wake up and do it again... And I would never know if that happiness around the bend was really there. It is really there... I can feel it coming already. Thank you Bigmammajen and everyone else who cares enough to help me.Thank u everyone!!!! Written January 7th, 2002 © on Jan 06 2002 07:18 PM PST   18 • 0 • 12