I Have Been Dethroned

I am no longer worthy of being who I am, It is too high a caste for me to sustain, For I am but nothing in the largest chunk of nothing that has ever existed. I remember once a long time ago when I thought I was something, Believed that maybe one day I could be better then what I am today, But I was wrong, I always am. Too many people know too well how to walk in and out of lives all to casually, Never really noticing they left the door open and the light outside shines so brightly, Pervading the room in which I become solitary, Contaminating the life I never really lived. There is no extra comfort, You can not provide what I know I need. Maybe this is just how I am supposed to live, Maybe it's just how I am supposed to be. Maybe the god I lost faith in really exists and this is my destiny, This is my life... Too bad I was taught that that wasn't good enough, Or I may have accepted the fact that my life is all I see in front of me. To all those who know me I must say sorry, If you care to comprehend this then don't be worried, I do not deserve it, I simply have been dethroned of my kingship... It was destined to be.Too all those who know what I mean I am sorry... Im sure it will be short lived. Written November 13th, 2001 © on Nov 13 2001 02:13 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1