Love and War

Am I all alone in the very world that has created me? Has it come to simply pass me by? When all I need is a person to listen, But all I receive is a voice telling me to reason... But it does not understand. There is no reasoning in love. Those who I have loved have simply not loved me in return, And those who say they love me complicate the situation more. It pulls at me in every direction possible and tells me to choose, But I cannot choose who to love or how to love that person. The only way to defeat myself is to break the hearts of the ones I cherish, And that will hurt me a lot more than it will them. It now seems there is a thin line between love and hate, And even though I hate everything she stands for, I love that sparkling shine in her eyes that tells me, 'At least for tonight, You will sleep tight, And everything will be alright.' Now it is tomorrow. My best friend doesn't even seem to love me, And I watch her embrace another, Less deserving person than I, But maybe I'm just being selfish... You tell me how it would feel to you if your best friend won't even let you touch her, Without moving farther away. There is always the others, The ones that confuse me the most. The one who has changed too easily and too quickly to be normal, And the one who refuses to change at all. They are both beautiful to me, But they are two completely different people. So what do I do when the world passes me by... When all I need is a person who listens... When all I get is a voice that reasons... It doesn't understand. Nobody does. Love is more than that. So I say as I lay down to sleep, And hope that tomorrow will solve yesterdays problems for me, So I can live on to another day, And love even harder, Yearning for the desire I need... And to that voice I say, 'Don't be stupid... There is no reasoning in love, nor war... And this is war, And I do love someone... I just don't know who.'**This is a true story and all the characters are true... I did leave out a few people who will go unmentioned, because they do not concern those reading this... I suppose I'm just another confused guy stuck between love and war... its amazing how closely they are related. Written January 2nd, 2002 © on Jan 01 2002 09:00 PM PST   18 • 0 • 10