My Only Teddy Bear

Sometimes in my dreams I go to this place I love so much, No words can be said that can describe this place except your smooth, sweet thouch. I remember when once all I needed was the security of knowing you would be there for me tomorrow and the next, But now all I have to remember is the one thing you left behind. Throughout the years there were laughs and there were fights, But surprisingly I did not cry for you, You didn't deserve it. Throughout the years we had so many good times together, But never were they complete, Always was there a sense of discomfort in the air. I know you don't want to hear it and you think your so special, But maybe your not. I know you think I'm just being selfish but maybe I just need this one last thing, Maybe I just need one last favor, As if you have ever done anything for me. If you really love him then love him forever or don't tell him lies. If you really mean it prove that to me so I can at least sleep tonight knowing you don't just need his extra comfort. I don't know why I need this, Maybe it's the pity I hold upon him, Or the closure I need from you, But I know it is what I need. Your lies have been repeated over and over, Now all I have left as proof is that small bit of rememberance in the corner of my bed, Which I hold tight every night. It is all I have left of when you really did love me, Didn't have to lie to prove your self worth. It reminds me of all those good times, And that is all I need.True story.. if fact, that bear still sits in the corner of my bed and always will until it withers away. Written November 13th, 2001 © on Nov 13 2001 02:29 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1