To Hate... A Wonderful Thing [RANTING!! (Strong Language)]

Who am I fooling anymore? It seems now the only ones who don't know me are the ones who supposidely love me? Where did the love go? Maybe it faded away with the trust, Or floated away like the hope and the tears. I guess it doesn't really matter, It's not like I won't be here to see them again tomorrow... Or will I? Do I really want to live anymore, Or am I just following my own stupid rules? Am I even happy, Or do I just tell myself that so I can smile? Who am I? Oh.. why am I asking you, You never knew... All you knew how to do was shrug your shoulders and disagree. Then there is you, With your entire fakness... Plastic as my fucking heart... As cold as a morbid north pole. I don't even care about you anymore... It seems I actually spend most of my time hating you... Damn that must feel bad, But I should know, right? I mean, It's not like I'm not hated. In fact... I do beleive I am one of the most hated people I know. Is it jealousy? Needless boredom? Who knows anything anymore? Oh what to do, what to do? What would you say if I stuck those words up your ass? Wouldn't like that would you? Then shut the fuck up! I don't care about religion or any of that shit... I don't need it, I don't want it, So get off my fucking back, And I will stop crawling all over yours. And you... What do you have to say? Am I really your friend, Or did you forget your homework again? I've helped you more than you'll ever know... But when I need help... Yeah right! You'd rather fucking burn in hell before that... But I don't mind... I hate you too... So go fuck yourself! Oh...and you!!! Yes, you!!! Crying in the corner, Or are you? Are those eyedrops I see? Is that the red make-up you use to fool everyone into beleiving you can really cry? You're fucking stone!! Don't kid yourself, I hate you Bitch!!! In fact... It's not even that I discrimate anymore... I fucking hate everyone, For some reason or another... Why don't you just make this easier and give me one instead?To all those wonderful people in my life... Fuck you all... And take your head outta your ass and look in the mirror for once... You might be surprised at who the fuck you really are. P.S... I'M MAD... couldn't u tell? P.P.S... WHY DOESN'T FUCKING SPELLCHECK DO ITS FUCKING JOB? Written January 7th, 2002 © on Jan 06 2002 03:31 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1