You No Longer Exist

It's been a cold night and I have left my jacket at home, I never thought I'd ever become a component of the cold. Sheltered from happiness, I never really knew what it was like to feel real light, And not just the kind you expect to be exposed to you every day. Today is different, For I have walked outside and the cold is more bitter, The darkness more prevading, The shadows no longer exist to watch over me, They are sleeping with the light. Today I see the truth behind the smile, I see those devilish eyes, Deceiving and solid, Blazing, yet blinded. Even though it's dark outside I can see you're flaws, They shine through in the darkness as nothing has before. A wise friend once told me, "People are like stained glass, When the darkness comes their real colors shine." I now know that you have none, You are darker than the midnight sky, And not nearly as beautiful. With every step you look one step back to make sure you haven't forgotten anything. With every movement you look one motion back to make sure you didn't miss anything on the way, And with every smile there is that deceiving frown lingering in the background, Leisurly as though I do not see it, Quietly as though it holds so many secrets. All through this I now know you are nothing more than solid darkness, Around you there is nothing new, Thorughout you there is nothing alive. You haven given in to destruction, You have lost the many unestablished wars... You no longer exist, Except as that dark figure that hides in the darkness when the shadows are asleep. You no longer exist.This is about someone inparticular and I dunno if they will read it but they probably won't know who they are... it could be anyone. Written December 5th, 2001 © on Dec 04 2001 03:13 PM PST   18 • 0 • 10