Curiously Close

And as I turn to the end I embrace what I might find I kill what shouldnt have lived I have come to close to the end Beneath the holes you dug around my life I fall Defeated, I withdrawl I may find it better here for me I might find peace within all of this emptiness How pitful can I be And in my moment of truth You speak to me You tell me something more You tell me you love me I still listen to these lies You never loved me I could never believe you now And as I move closer to my eternal doom As I put the razor to my wrist You plead You cry Its to late You never cared for me Only for him I shoud have never listened Now look at me Feeble and frail No one to comfort me Alone in this hole you dug I was stupid I let you touch me I let your words spill into me I let them pass right through the barriers You brought out hope and reason within me But it was all a lie How could you do it Just lie to me so well Make me fall in love with you Then throw me away What did I do? To suffer this fate The last one to suffer The worst You tell me not to You say its not the right way Your lieing stop Please I love you Why dont you notice this I have come curiously close to the end To close for comfort I dont wanna die Save me Please I have done the math Enough to know that this was a mistake You were a mistake I was a mistake I should have never loved you As I reach into the darkness Into the endless forever The blackness I call home I tell you one last time I love you Written February 16th, 2002 © on Feb 16 2002 07:19 AM PST    18 • 0 • 8