Small Hopes, ‘Tis Life

Night so long, night so cold Here I lay alone, again Hopes and dreams seem so small It all falls away from me Hearing whispers taunt me from the dark Teasing me with all that I can’t have Showing me a normal life And laughing ‘cause I’ll never have it They hold before me another chance I grasp for it desperately They pull away and laugh again So is the endless torment I see the love within her eyes I feel it in her sweet embrace I taste it on her vary lips I know it’s true, if for only this moment Then fate takes over, the curse takes hold I’m left alone again, to cry myself to sleep If only they knew what I am If only they knew who I am If only they knew what I become But this is impossible, for even those who try They get close, but are soon lost in the void My heart breaks, my hopes shatter It happens again, the curse has won I fight so hard to overcome, but loose Given everything, but have nothing All that is the dream, is to be complete All that I have means nothing All that I want is her She is my dream; she is my hope She is all that I need; she makes me complete She gives it all meaning, brings order to chaos All that I am, mind, body, heart, and soul She takes me within her, and all becomes one But she doesn’t exist… or does she? Written March 23rd, 2002 © on Mar 23 2002 02:16 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1