'Dear Sweet Mother'

It's been a long time since I saw you Dear Mother Thirteen years since we could touch or hug one another These years went so fast as if each were a day Still thoughts of you Mom come whatever may Sometimes I just sit as I miss you so much I think of your teachings and your all healing touch Many years before you left you told me things I'd do While pretending not to listen still wondering how you knew I guess that you can see me even though you are not here You've seen me go astray you're not here to steer You must be upset probably just plain mad How I've handled situations opportunities that I've had You and your Sister Aunt Ethel I love you too To build a life for me the things that you went through Genuine feelings of appreciation I felt them,yes I did Strange as I get older I act more like a kid Sometimes I visit your house drive by it just to see It looks so different now that there is no you and me The lessons I learned there thoughts you would convey Even though not utilized I recall them to this day Most of my time these days is spent letting people know I don't reflect my upbringing hence I've naught to show Lots of questions haunt me every single night and day So ironic I'd be whining when left in such a way I did'nt play my cards right of my decisions I'm not proud Surrendered all and everything to be a face out in the crowd You really do not need this pat on the back I know You'd appreciate it more if I'd just shut up and grow I expect that you have at least a thought or two On how I let you down things you never dreamt I'd do Dear Sweet Mother I wish I could see you again But where you are right now I don't think they'll let me in eak ©1999 Written October 13th, 2001 © on Oct 13 2001 01:02 PM PST   0 • 1