I am Weak

Left to myself in my hole. There's a danger to that you know, With only me as company And my computer's glowing screen. I download stuff and hit the web. I surf until I go to bed. The next day it starts again. The pathway to my bitter end. Hooked to the entire freaking nation, But still there's no communication. There were things I wanted to do, But I couldn't get beyond my room. 'Cause I'm weak. I am weak, And my future's Looking bleak. Not even blessed To be a freak. I am weak. I am weak. Sit and whine, but don't do a thing: A trait I hate in human beings, But now I’m finding it in me So crown me with Hypocrisy. I can’t respect who I am. Do I really give a damn? So many chances for a change. So little that I’ve rearranged. Memories of times that I’ve been able To lift my live and keep it stable. But with every rise comes the fall again, My roller coaster of reproach and sin. ‘Cause I’m weak. I am weak. I won’t find ‘cause I don’t seek. Make illusions So I seem meek, But I’m weak. I am weak. 'Cause it takes strength to create, But all I do is gorge. I take. I leave a void in my wake, And taint my bounty with my hate. I am weak. Yes, I am weak.Gee, can you tell I was a tad depressed when I wrote this? :-P I don't feel like this normally, but every once in a while... Written January 12th, 2002 © on Jan 12 2002 12:04 PM PST   20 • 0 • 1