painted angel, pt 2

IV A spent gun tossed aside on the road to nowhere, itching for a trigger finger I found myself naked and bruised Sweating in the gravel Color burned and battered by the sun Wandering in every direction I stumbled upon an oasis Moist and green and almost hidden by my arid visions I sought solace in the willow and she cradled me in her smooth and twisted arms I watched anemic blue glitter through the leaves And i fell into dreams of love and respite She had failed Pulling me from the deep and darkened soul of eternity, Etching me in shades of your design She had missed something Overlooked some vital spark; The enigmatic spark i’d glimpsed in that first moment, looking down upon the stars A spark echoed in their love for one another as they reached out across the vast and cosmic night Their love shown in tones of red, blue and white... Not my colors Not the colors of Her angel-hair brush But that was all gone with Her sing-song whisper of butterfly wings Of pebbles and sand Your head in my hands You had put out the light And then put out the light V For days i lay Well preserved Unnaturally immortal A dim reflection of life itself My blackened eye pierced the very heart of the sun I prayed to Her for blindness I asked to be made deaf I begged for a tongueless life I wanted the mute and fathomless mindset of a fetus wrapped in a somnambulistic shroud of silent, pre-dawn existence I was lost in a vast and verdant jungle of perception When next i opened my blackened eye Night had fallen gracefully in the distance And i spied a new light A new and warm emanation beckoning me from over the horizon I drifted back down to the earth like so many leaves Was i destined to fall, Destined to fade, Destined to lose one for whom i was made? Dusty moonlight shined down into a small pool tucked away in the farthest nook of my breathing velvet sanctuary The icy waters washed Her name away No trace of the original sin Save for my blackened eye and your prints in my tender side I arose from the pool with fire in my eyes and my blank body radiating the moonlight A vague sense of omnipotent ecstasy permeated my soul in a moment of platinum beauty VI The ghostly beauty of the lost desert in night gave way to concrete and fluorescence darkened only by its reflection in great sheets of glass My amorous stars pushed out of sight Out of mind by the impassioned reality of light spawned in the great metropolis sprawling out in every direction from beneath my feet I walked softly Naked and enchanted by the passersby I tried to shield my blackened eye Nobody saw Nobody felt as i brushed by A painted angel wiped clean and Invisible to all but you I understood then the pain i could feel in the slow, sleepy rhythm of their beating hearts and their footsteps as they walked away Always walking away The city passed me by as in a dream A nightmare without you Sullen silences broken now and then by cries in the night Cries of lust, sorrow, joy And cries of fright Suddenly i came Incredulous To the end of the road My eternal road cut short by rickety wooden fenceposts, whitewash glowing in the night? Beyond the fence lay the ocean Black as my eye Desperate and eternal Despair and disillusion washing over me I fell a thousand years Pebbles and sand biting my knees Appearing before me, Pushed forth by the foamy fingers of the sea, I found a broken bottle No message A yellow shard of glass in hand I wrote your name across my chest in bitter red I sacrificed myself to Her bold amnesiac purpose Her artful hand would no longer lay hold of my heart Your name on my tongue bittersweet I felt the vibration, The gravity of your voice said my name, called out to me in your fever dream, Pulled at the water in my eye Your breath howled through my quivering soul Almost moved to madness, I saw yet another light Small and bright Your light Your candle burning in the distant window! I felt the colors, Deep and everlasting, Wash over me and all i’d ever know Her voice in the waves a provocation Fearing for my life Yet i knew i would go....well, this is part two, so if you haven't read part one, then it probably makes no sense whatsoever... hehe Written January 23rd, 2002 © on Jan 23 2002 05:21 AM PST   0 • 10