Lonely...

I left you. Thought it was time. Figured it was time. So did you. Distance. Many miles. So many dials. Phone calls. Long Hours. Ended. I loved you. You loved me. But we ended. Humor, The second time. But better this time. I still loved you. I didn't hate you. This time. We got it better. But I ended it. Why, Tired? Bored? Distance? Why? We knew. It was clear then. We knew it, Had to be done. Must be done. Should be done. Could be done. But... I loved you, Still, You loved me, Still. BUT! We did it. We ended it. Now I'm alone. One, In a "sea of faces". So many faces. So many ugly faces. So many plane faces. So many beautiful faces. So many faces. But non for me. I want only one. Your's! But I left you. I'm alone. Tears, Welling. Held back, Must move on. Strive on. Live on. But we, Are not we, Anymore. I am Me. You are you. You and I, Are not we.. Just us. Two friends. I miss you. Your touch. Your feel. Your scent. Your taste. I long for your touch. I long for you hand. I long to wisper, In your ear. I long to taste you lips. I long to hold you. I long for you. But I don't have you. Who has you? I don't, That's all I know. I moved on, I tried at least. I failed in the end. I missed you. I thought of you. But, I couldn't have you. I am alone! I am so alone. Cruel world take my bones! Take them, I don't wish them. Take the life from them. Leave me hollow, Leave me Alone. But in my dispare, A light! You told me, You loved me still. I was to blaim. I said it that night. I said it at dinner. A dinner of two friends. I didn't, Want that! But I didn't say it. I told you, I love you still. But I dwindled... I hovled off, To be alone. I was alone... My mind collapsed. So much in my life. so much I was losing. It was collapsing, It was failing. It was depressing. I was alone... The light... It returned! You told me again! I didn't cause it! What did this mean? For I was alone. But you want me, Again. A third time. A third time. Each time.. Is better then last. But even with the light, I'm alone. I don't have the light, Around me. Far off is the light. it's coming. But I don't have your light. I am alone. But I am coming back. You called me. I answered... Will answer. I am alone. I see the light. We are not alone. Written January 15th, 2002 © on Jan 15 2002 01:41 PM PST   18 • 0 • 8