Choices

Choices in the course of my life took me off the main road and on a side street. Just to try it once and besides its harmless - there's nothing I can't beat. A first time try "it wasn't that bad..." went the thought through my mind, And I looked forward to doing it again and again, time after time. Choices made around the bend under the facade of my new friend. "Little while nuggets" for my next hit as my soul hungered for what I was about to get. I could hardly control my anticipation for the swirling smoke that was coming just for me. When I opened my eyes, all around me, a cloud of white was all I could see. Choices were easy when I thought, "Nothing's going to happen to me. I'm not like those people they show on TV." Like a fool, I believed my own lies and denied the truth right in front of my eyes. I wasn't addicted and could stop if you wanted to bet - It doesn't control me but I'm not ready to quit just yet. Hooked - and it only took once and I was caught in this maddening ecstasy; I turned into someone I did not want to be. Choices along the way put me back on the main road from the hellacious side street. I escaped the trap that ensnared me for so long and got back on my feet. A hunger remained deep inside and I realized that only God could fill that empty hole. Through Christ and the Cross my addiction was beat and Jesus saved my soul. Written October 25th, 2001 © on Oct 25 2001 10:11 AM PST   0 • 10