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"I drive seething with contempt at mankind, angry intersections full of snaking minds, I drive by slowly watching people watching images of themselves in windows of cliched kind, I see youth skating, h..."

"stagnant pools of wasted dreams drowning every night it seems shadows follow the path I take falling from a darker age long and slender stalks of doom reach for me in darkness bloom torn asunder runni..."

"do you hate me hate me don't care for my reasoning hell will care for you demons think inside my brain use me up caress me insane did I say that insanity is the art of being in touch with your true se..."

"hey little shining light hey little star hey little blazing sun hey little flaring gun hey little flame stop trying to touch my insanity stop trying to cure my inadequacies stop trying to take away m..."

"I'm losing myself again transforming into nothingness falling back down I'm not even sure where I am it's like I peak and everything is way cool then over the edge and I plummet freefalling and I can'..."

"When darkness rules the day as night and numbness creeps its way full flight across my stoney face appears nothing and I touch everything with my silence hands in the air feet on the ground ..."

"here again why bother leaving struggle to overcome prove to myself chance the disappointment there's something more than being numb here I stand find myself static in this perpetual madness..."

"you wanna eat the chippies eat the chippies don't eat the chippies who the fuck cares just pass me the remote stop whining and get me another beer fucking women who'd be one trust me get a dogummm ver..."

"The petals fall from the yellow daisies that you gave me on my desk they sit and glare at my indifference much like you do when I want to be alone. You give them to me always to cheer and remind me o..."

"through the flames see the dark tendrils black permeate warm air on nights' wing touches face burning skin flames gather run diverge red heat melting earth hazy sky cloaking sun hanging orange nigh..."

"light delight pale moonlight ray of sunlight dawn speak to me my mistake stop to listen still dew soft wet morning breath fresh and gentle flame warm sunshine penetrate unforgiving move sun respon..."

"unravel pause to smile standing still torrents inside step away turn to go sideways glance never to know Written December 16th, 2001 © on Dec 16 2001 11:55 AM PST    18 • 0 • 10"

"Somewhere to be flying lose myself in sleep I'm going to fly in the blue green sky with the white foam clouds rolling over me Fly with the creatures that live in this sky make it my own when I learn ..."

"stare beyond horizon, sink deeper down care less than nothing, knowing what is found mesmerised floating, dreaming within blues and greens arising, snaking over skin no momentum, drifting here alone..."

"'little tug boat' sometimes at work I feel like I'm the only one holding things together steering the fleet with my efficient little tug boat while every other minute of my life I feel like I'm subs..."

"I am alone I like the darkness in darkness I can see I am unknown I reach out to find what is not yet there I am surrounded crowded in I can't be found only what is wanted I didn't make none of it is ..."

"Candle light so pretty yellow bright softening and warming, dancing and performing translating shapes and shadows elongating memories moments that glow, flickering thoughts mesmerising me touching my ..."

"Love is a stranger that knocks on your door then when you go to answer there's nobody there there's footprints and scuff marks all that's left behind and a peculiar feeling at the back of your mind ..."

"you're kind of strange you know how your eyes never smile and your lips never speak what your heart never feels and your voice hides the sound of the shattered pieces of your broken mind that never sl..."

"My hand presses against my heart the thumping reassures me I don't know why reassures me of my own reality sleep evades me the sound of waves crash through the night they usually lull me but they call..."

"calm soft thoughtsinvading my headgently nudging asidedoubts and reasoningnudging over the edgepushing awayhiding in a dark dark wellany real emotionthat chances bythought patrolhiding in the bushesre..."

"CONFESSIONS . . . kiss . . . desire . . . lust . . . you ! ! !*wearing wicked grin* ;-} Written January 12th, 2002 © on Jan 11 2002 03:08 PM PST    18 • 0 • 10"

"'desire' infidelicious can't help myselfish hypocrithetical contemplatise illicitation wayward deviation temptantalising I cannot deny;-} Written January 12th, 2002 © on Jan 11 2002 03:13 PM PST..."

"'lust' love me bite me hold me tight break me take me force me from this life Written January 12th, 2002 © on Jan 11 2002 03:33 PM PST    18 • 0 • 10"

"just for 'you' Sometimes I dream of you, when I'm sleeping or driving, listening to the music we shared, when we talked and held each other, I am taken back to that place, laying beside you, just be..."

"smiling eyes personas' delight naive lips tempting to bite look upon you talking earnestly and all I can do mentally dream restraining thought your insensitive touch bursting my dam of urgent lustthe ..."

"i don't have your answers i threw them all away they singed my lips and stained my hands darkened my heart with winged embrace raped my intellect with greed and haste stole my thoughts..."

"obsessed . . . . . . . . . i taste . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . your hate absurdity . . . . . . . . . pain . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . essential my breath . . . . . . . . . hal..."

"I read you like a shadow your elusiveness excited my challenge I slipped on your notoriety pausing to lick the embers wipe the ashes from my eyes gift me a glance so I can assume your reality flinchin..."

"i cant sleep i get up i write expelling the pain i lay down i can't stay down i wander through the rooms i listen to the night i sway with the wind more words invade my brain somersaulting and elongat..."

"Brought to being by the caterpillars' song Who sang through the night and the next day long Slept in a cradle rocking on a thorn Looked upon stars and there was I born Sown together by fine silk thre..."

"there's a journey waiting for me a brilliant journey unlike any I have so far seen take the light away from me darkness helps me see wraps me in its tenderness envelopes and softens this world for me ..."

"surrounding me a tangle of memories dark, hate, loneliness hold me down hold me back me who am I amongst this mess pain I can't go back too fragile, too weak stretched no more elasticity hurtling back..."

"singing in my mind swaying in my skin pumped up full of adrenaline ready to face the challenge of being with myself swimming through thoughts jumping over memories tagging along for the ride unable to..."

"do you dream me when you close your eyes or do you just imagine conjure up a tragedy your darkness in disguise is that why I stumble confused and out of place caught between reality and your unfamilia..."

"I want to cloak myself in the darkness silent standing hushed in a field caressed by the night air close my eyes and breathe how do I escape the places I go to to escape the places I have to be all t..."

"if I were you and you were me what intricacies of self would we see what reflections of pain and enduring fights of hardened shells and scars that bite of feelings bought and thrown away of lessons le..."

"light hangs me for a fool the colour where i die salt encrusted repetition savoury spoken lies add myself collected lifes insidious stare dialogue detected flashing buyer beware changed myself midsent..."

"I'm a kitten watch me play cute and vulnerable stroke my fur all day I'm a cat see me pounce playful and mischievous you're my mouse I'm a tiger hear me roar vicious and unpredictable beware of natu..."

"=^..^= my angel she is like a little dragon with her wings tucked into her eyes especially when she sleeps in that strange dragon way I expect when she wakes she will unfurl her dragon wings instead ..."

"hiding in this barren world I have locked myself away completely from every aspect of this life I whisper through who are you to mirror my own destruction another assumption of reflection I shiel..."

"passion plays me mistress never coming first caressed by wrong intentions bonded by relief hypnotised expression bed of unmade sleep held silent in reflection love lies lost in grief waking fr..."

"~~*~~ woman undone by a glance i stop almost afraid to move then you whisper me to your side and i glide as on silken wings unfamiliar with your casual repose i feign disinterest of your subtle style..."

"~*~ creating empires sounds of war lull me to sleep computer battles ~*~not really haiku unless computer wars are in season patience is a virtue :] Written February 12th, 2002 © on Feb 11 2002 11..."

"~*~ the golden pattern shines sun and moon entwined sparkling yellow starlight dawns hushed eyes aglow the craftsmanship is unique quality for none to par the handles intricate carvings a warm life f..."

"~**~ fear me enbodying your lack of substance I partake of your inequality starving my mind your ignorance despising the air inhaling stench of decay tracks wayward traveller hidden transformation f..."

"~*~ i live this life i give i live i watch i grow i love i live i bleed i grow the gifts we share of love of life of blood of hope the pain i hold self controlled i live today i give today i learn to..."

"~*~ wrap me indelible silence risk adventure game replays happy ending withstanding escape intricate detail edit despair unending shallow grave undug conceptual display overtaken riddled dilemma of l..."

"~O~ inconsequential thoughts scatter like bird seed littering lifes path caught up in revisions framing scars avoidance reaction standing on broken ground standing in open road evening glan..."

"~^..^~ skip the beat slip the beat drop the bass slide over here beat the rhythm meet the rhythm take home blues plays me free rhythm of a chance given me a chance clap your hands sway your hips ..."

"~~ colour co-ordinate marvel creations hanging obscenities aesthetic appeal capture illusion transported artistry objectify lifestyle framing ambivalence location ideal detail dimensions surface arran..."

"~*~ sky light day bright star light night sight moon light dream flight selflight insight pontificate confusion filtering reality charming persuasion contemporary craft displaced misnomer align..."

"~*~ sounds penetrate reverberate pass through waves travel expanding signaling electrons action reaction progression concentration productive state pleasantly agreeing over compensate aggravate placa..."

"i drive too fast the music has to be loud rushing from race to race singeing myself inside and out creating perpetual stress running myself dry empty of all respite never catching up no glance behin..."

"~~^~~ extract myself unnecessary despicable to the end walls of introspection gotta stop banging my head captured myself in cliche some bad ass attitude grinding hips to confusion dancing mo..."

"~O~ everything quickens then slows to a beat i know that im tired but cant seem to sleep pushing my body to painful extremes a lacking overabundance physchosis in screams the energy rating has dimmed..."

"I'm so cute I'm so funky dancing nude fashion junky dress myself artisitic impression stylish hips swaying sexy long and slender sophistication buy myself chic ellation cool and calm external beauty p..."

"~)(~ spilt milk wiped up and eradicated before spoiled words describe my feelings parlaying my insides painting pictures of black blue and grey wallpapering a fountain useful it ain't I see and he..."

"~)(~ floating how would that be in the depths of the ocean moon drowning in love with me fish swimming perpetual motion in all directions waves gently nudging spilling froth salty flakes of unshed te..."

"~)(~ slander me via your progression you pander to my lifeless form what hope of reconciliation what strength is there in sand mend me with acceptance carry me forward and beyond cancel the d..."