SecretSins

"You're so shallow,superficial little girl.Ballerina you think you're perfect,go ahead do your fancy little twirl. But don't forget where you came from,don't forget your past.Don't forget the ones you ..."

"You slide your fingers down his bare chest, you're kissing all of the places that make him want you. You're lips are teasing him, as he pulls your shirt over your head. Nimble fingers unhook your blac..."

"Am I a sinner or a saint? Who cares it's all the same. Am I in heaven or in hell? Who cares it's all a game. Written October 6th, 2001 © on Oct 06 2001 09:28 AM PST   0 • 10"

"I sit in silence in the back of your mind,trying to wait till you truly fuck yourself up.I'm watching you drink,from the bottle that will one day take your life.I try to call out to you,but I can't sp..."

"She's my best friend, until I piss her off. Then it's like I don't exist. She follows me with her eyes, it's like she tries to burn holes through my skin. She's trying to reach the person that I wa..."

"Your tongue dances in my mouth.Your hands slide like glaciers over the ocean of my skin,sending chills to the deepest part of me.You tease me with your strong hands,tugging at my firm breasts.I can ta..."

"Don't give me your false glory,or your superioristic views.You know your just like me,the only difference is I gave a damn.You're trying to push me down with your lies,while you hide behind your prett..."

"You seem to forget the ways it used to be.How I was the one to worry,and I was the one to care. Do you remember all those stories you told us?Wild parties, older men?Do you remember lying,making mista..."

"Don't worry about it, if you go wrong. It's all okay, we can kneel down and repent later. Then we'll get our prize, leaving all of those we hurt behind us. And you can forget them all, if it helps ..."

"You think you're so much better than me, but bitch don't cross lines that you can't handle. Don't talk words that you can't back up.  I'm done apologizing and I'm done giving a damn. You've pushed m..."

"I'm standing across this smoke filled room, you're shriveled in the corner, snorting up your doom. Take a hit, hide it from us all, no knows about you, but, God, they will when you fall. You think ..."

"I stand in the lonely third isle of the store, ahead of me my future, behind me the door. Since I've walked through, I lost the key. Now my mistakes grow inside of me. The little box confirms what I a..."

"You're laying there, wearing nothing, but everything just the same. You're eyes undressing me, take away all of my problems. All because of those eyes, and how my bare skin feels rubbing against you..."

"Funny little girls,you think you're so smart. That you know everything,but everything you think you know about me,isn't real.But how could you know that?All you ever do is hide,behind your dirty looks..."

"I've never judged you for a thing you did. When you needed me I was there. Do you have any idea how many times I've defended you? I believed in you, trusted you. But we grew apart, most people do ev..."

"I thought that we were bigger than this. I thought we were grown up. But we're just scared little girls, hiding behind the only things we can find. I hide behind my lies, you hide behind your silence ..."

"Everyday we step farther away from the hell we used to live in. Everyday we grow farther apart. Everyday my memory fades a little more. Everyday we get a little older, a little wiser. Everyday we lea..."

"I never meant for it to turn out this way, I never meant to push you away. I never meant to hurt you like this, I never meant to sell my worth for a kiss. I never meant to fall apart, I never meant to..."

"What is it now that you want me to do, when you know I belong to another? You know that I can't, I have to stay true, but it hurts to see you with your lover.  Something happens when you say you lov..."

"I'm so confused, I'm lost and out of control. It's so hard to watch you friends fall. It's so hard not to crumble under the secrets you have to keep. It seems like all the things we used to be are s..."

"All this bull shit, Oh God can't I just quit? All this pain, when will you stop the rain? All these lies, why can't you hear my cries? All this confusion, can you tell me if my life is just an illu..."

"I've always loved the rain, it washes away the filth you put on me. I've hiden from you for all this time, but I can't seem to forget. Your days of cheap thrills and lies linger in my mind. All those..."

"Now what do you want me to do? You're pushing me away from everything you ever taught me. You told me to stand up strong, hold on to what I believe in. And now here I am standing up, not backing dow..."

"You always say that we are so different, well what's that supposed to mean? You shudder like it isn't worth it anymore. Are you avoiding me on purpose? I used to be what you lived for, at least that'..."

"You can't see these scars inside of me, I'm burnt and broken. You left a funny after-taste of stale cigarettes and cheap beer. Now I'm left to walk around in this solitude, carrying the weight you g..."

"It was a warm spring night, we were all at your house, drinking laughing. You and I'd been friends for two years. You graduated last year, I was a Junior. How the time flew by. I don't remember why..."

"Does it seem fair to you that now we have no where to run to? Does it seem right that in the dark of the night we fall apart? Did you ever think that all we never were, would ever be the only thing th..."

"Everything is so confusing now, I don't know what to do. Everytime I think of running away, you say "I Love You." If you love me so much, stop treating me like a child, I grew up long ago, I'm not m..."

"You spent so long, hiding it from us all. How'd you do it? Lesser would have stumbled under the pressures of her addiction. You hid it so well, that even now, seven months later, I find myself wonderi..."

"Let me ask a question, cuz it's been on my mind. When you needed help, did I turn my back on you? When you felt "cheap after a one night stand", did I call you a whore and say that I couldn't believe..."

"I never understood what those words meant. I never understood how standing by a flag, could bring tears to someones eyes. I never understood what the price of freedom was. I never understood the ba..."

"I'm standing here alone, all these eyes are placed on me. What did I do, how far must I run to escape this shit? I know I put it all on me but isn't there a point when enough is enough? I've learned ..."

"What's the point of this anymore? Why don't we just give up? We constantly lie, say it's going to get better. What goes up, must come down. Why do we feel like lying about the people we've become? Ar..."

"Is it really all that hard to keep up? I don't run that far ahead. When you spend so much time alone, do you ever miss me? When you're so tired from never loving anyone, does your heart break for me?..."

"Let's make this final moment last, cuz everything that's set in stone is set in the past. There really isn't much left to do, just sit and reminisce about all the times we've been though. None of u..."

"It only hurts when I'm by myself, when I had you to think about I never felt this alone. I thought I was doing the right thing. How long could I stay with you? How long can I breath without you? My c..."

"Another day gone by, with you on my mind. Another sleepless night, closed eyes, making me blind. Another dream of you, with a nightmare ending. Another day to live through, without a love pending. ..."

"I was too young to feel that way, well, at least that's what they say. I was too young to love you so much, well, they said you used me as a cruch. I was too young to have a broken heart, well, at ..."

"We're just a little closer, to where we never thought we'd be. We're running out of time now, it's almost over, it's hard to believe. We've been through so much, so many tears, so many endless nigh..."

"It's so hard now, even this dusty furniture reminds me of you. I remember nights of sitting on the couch, watching old black and white re-runs till two in the morning.  Now the tv's broken and I c..."

"I remember when you called your best friend Pepsi. You'd talk aboout it as if it were no big deal, but only to those who never gave two shits about you. You loved your "friend" so much more than you e..."

"I am broken. (you broke me) I am crying. (you are my tears) I am falling away. (you pushed me over) I am alone. (you left me) I am dirty. (you soiled me) I am afraid. (you scare me) I am nothing..."

"Are you still there? I can't see your star. Your voice plays in the background of my memories, and I can't hold you anymore, cuz you've gone. You're gone and I can't breath. What happens to me now?..."

"i'm gonna steal the life you stole from her let me rape you of everything you feel holy let me spit on your self-confidence and push you into the ground i'm gonna hold myself on top of you until you..."

"What's the point anymore? Take this shit away.  Even these drugs don't numb me to the pain of what you did. Leave me alone cuz you're nothing left but dirt on the floor. And my life isn't meant for ..."