Soul Churner

"ALONE I AM ME I COPE WITH WHO I AM I AM THIS CAPACITY THAT FACES EACH FEAT MYSELF IT WEARS ME DOWN TO ACCEPT MYSELF CLEARING OUT EVERY ADVERSARY TO THE MANY MENTAL MASSES CARRIED LIKE OBJECTS CONTAI..."

"PUSHING FROM THE INSIDE OUT, HAVE YOU COME TO FIX ME? MINUS ALL THE MINOR DETAILS, ARE YOU TO SAY I'M BROKEN? SHARPENING YOUR RAZOR EDGE, YOU'RE WANTING TO REPLACE ME. WANTING TO FILL IN THE CRACKS, Y..."

"I don't want to be this now, The fear of who I am. I want to suppress it down, Just let it drift away. Slipping into this other part of me, Until I'm crashing down On the other side. Goodbye uncertain..."

"I'm not torn down. This ache, Will not be in my side. No more like thorns surrounding me, Cutting through, Into the ribbons I've once tied. Spreading out, Like the lace that covers me, Washing clear,..."

"Another mist of an early morning, I lay back down with such contentment. I fail to acknowledge what's in the mirror. It does not show me who I am. It is flesh on bones with blood and water. Funny..."

"Let me not listen through these quiet times, Ones of slanderous echoes that mock my name. Let my thoughts be ears that block out the sound Of broken promises whispered through unsacred ties, Ones made..."

"Screw all of you, Who always knew I never gave a damn About any of your thoughts. Some of you who never Alleviated my mind one bit. Always just full of shit Towards being something you're not. So op..."

"Thoughts now reach me On a back road to home. Sentenced by an era, I lose my way again. You can find me here Wiping a few tears. I pretend I don't care Although it has consumed me. I'm steadily drivi..."

"Your compliments are the warmth inside me. I have my issues I can not explain. Words are like waste Used up from the beginning. Sometimes just thrown away And not retained. But there are times..."

"This lesser beauty has a right to be Unchallenged for what she is worth. Sometimes a fury that hangs around, Uncompromised unto the earth. Ungrounded steps make her path. She waits for no reply...."

"Waiting for moments I've hidden from you, As a chance that never crossed your mind. Naked are the thoughts still unaware, Taking numbers as I stand in line. I keep myself busy while masquerading, Not ..."

"Where are these faults I have distorted? Growing as proportions Of no return. Sewed into my weaknesses, Weaving it with bitterness, Shaving off its glory From where I burn. Wanting to see myself, I wa..."

"A train of thought never leaving Searches for a refuge of no end. Happy-go-lucky without hesitation It breathes in and out again. Like a restless soul grown weary, I travel farther than beyond. ..."

"Please don't shut me out.I'm not the one Who's looked down on you. I have my patience,But it's thinning out. I have not done you wrong.I compromise sometimes,When you're not telling me What I should d..."

"I am this journey That needs to be completed. I am one that bears too many prejudices. Against the world, You and I are the same. We are good and evil marks along the way. We would like to be of..."

"Shelter all these past mistakes. I know my own. I've grown my own. Sweltered in a fast beginning, To makes its clone, I stay alone; Become the unknowing. Caught up in a world still spinning, I recogni..."

"While halos hold your horns into place, I'm the imp not admired by you. A doll of glass who throws her stones, Unlike you, I am looked through. I'm alright. I'm okay. I'm not anyone's first choice, an..."

"Glamour as an illusion, Having its toll Not taken form unto me. I'm better without intrusion Of its final course Controlling what we see. Being left unknown, Not having the graces To where we could f..."

"Her head leans up into the sky, With arms unfolding out wide And back down to her side She tells me, "Mommy, I love you this much". I smile to think, I too, Am also five. My life began the day I had ..."

"Played through a symphony of cigar and cap, Tap, Tap, Typing his work on the keyboard. Singing a song of a two edged sword, Contradicting what real feelings are. The artist who paints with words, Sees..."

"Torn away, Left undignified, Identified as A never ending virtue That never stayed. Still unpaid For debts once made, We can not clear the error of its cost. Bearing more than ever Of what has changed..."

"Guided by an imagery To tear myself away, From perils once darkened over me, I portion its voyage astray. Removing what was karma's cycle, I rebirth but not repeat. Cleansing in planes with chai..."

"Fate may lead you through hardships and downfalls, But God has given you endurance to cope. He framed you sturdy to be in it for a long haul. He gave you merit as the merchant of hope. When you ..."

"Lately I have come to life. I dared to change the ways That have removed me. I go on further Not backwards in time, Eluding the ones that leave me empty. Written December 27th, 2001 © on Dec 27 2001..."

"Consistent morally inapplicable, You've ranged me from sainthood To unsuitable. I barely have been enlightened by you. I shared emotions uninvited by you. Are you to have all this fame? Not even blame..."

"You make me willful, Dressing out into your world. Come modify me Into a motif of lewd expressions. I'll be your canvas. Come paint me in your words. We can be outlandish, Drinking into a lust unsobe..."

"Praises be to the comforts Of your wisdom. You freely give them. In your grace I will not suffer. I am kept from falling under As you plunder me of my pillaging ways. You make me unswerving, ..."

"Seven years were spent waiting for me to be Expanding perspectives through this one night; Venturing out from above my anxieties, Emancipating through encounters of your delight. Naturally I have not ..."

"His form burned out the murkiness of twilight To etch memories of a monument of perfection. He lit quite a vision for my fatigued eyesight, Stretching out into this chiseled mass. Smooth and hard and..."

"I've become something of a dismal recluse, Wanting to let loose of grievances. Loathing despair at its back door of obligations, I've become a cynic filled with many worries. A rather, boring simpleto..."

"Leading to nowhere, They climb like an endless mountain Becoming the outcome of consequence and chance. Interpreted like a dance Denouncing whose flaw it was, Being impartial but narrow-minded; Failu..."

"Lingering as an odor At odds like some disease, Passed down from one hand to another, Interupting all decrees. I, Myself, Am often guilty As a skeptic in my own right. Refusing to be unenthusi..."

"I rise up into me and out from darkness. Peering through the shadows that talk to me, Surprisingly, I am not passive. I am the strength from which I came, Brought out of calignosity. An appariti..."

"Brainchild elate me, Infect me, Inflame me. Install me for insight. Institution, Animate me. All that I am, Fills me. An ordination, I illustrate me. Writing to what wills me, I create, I reveal me. W..."

"Trying not to view you As another piece of ass, I doze off to your world For seconds of mass confusion. Reality floats me to the surface. I gasp for another breath, Forsaking you behind To your dark ..."