Call Of The Lost Child

6 months, 1 week, 4 days . . . that's how long you've been gone. That's how long I've been crying. That's how long somethings been missing. You were my angel, my confidant, my best friend, my life! God sent you to me so I could live. You showed me the gifts of life, you taught me how not to fight. You proved everything has a purpose. You promised I'd turn out fine. I haven't been the same since you left, my angel left her mortal! I miss those green sparkling eyes. I forgot what it felt like to hug you. But then I remember: I remember your jubliant ways, the countless talks. I treasure my four pictures, being that's all of my momentos. My angel was like no other. She converted ways of darkness into ones of light. She had faith and hope when all was lost, and she believed when there was nothing. To her I was a cause worth saving, to her I was something. To me she was my entire world. She picked me up every time, in such a loving sweep. She always let me lean on her, when I couldn't seem to stand. She let me fall apart, and then found the glue. No one knew me better, My angel gave me light. She gave me a purpose, she gave me everything. God knew how badly I needed someone because he sent me Kate. My blond haired, sparkling green eyed angel. She knew all, never to be worong, she gave everything to me. She wanted me to live, she wanted me to love. I'd be dead without her, she had a heart of gold, unlike any other. She was my best friend, I remember our last time together. 6 months, 1 week, and 4 days ago . . . We sat on a dock watching fire works, below us the gentle water. Above the light filled sky. In her room were boxes, all her posessions, all her life, in boxes. She left me, to move to a different place. She said always stay strong, she always keep faith. She said she'd always be there, were are you now? When ALL is broken?? I beg god for you every night. I fall to my kness, and I beg, I plead, I rationalize the thought. Everyone has someone, and now I'm all alone. Can't he see I need you, and that you left too soon? Please come back to me so I can live again! You stored in me so much, I never wanted to let you down. I always kept going for you, I did everything for you. You were the light to lead me home,the brightness at the tunnel. You saved me, you healed all my wounds, you allowed me to live. I laughed and loved with all my heart. I was whole because of you, I was smiling because of you. I was breathing because of you, god sent me an angel. He sent you to me, so I could see . . You restored everything, and I had a world. You were my world, my life, and my best friend. You are that amazing grace, vivacious for living, optimistic in all ways, undying faith, that was YOU! Nothing you couldn't do, 6 months ago you left. You went to help someone else, you left to save another. And now you're gone forever. No more hugs, mo more laughs, no more memories. My best friend, my angel, my world . . They all left me 6 months ago. And now I'm reduced to begging on my knees, with tears streaming down. Begging, just begging Him for you. The light has turned black, and oh God I need you back. There's pieces of me everywhere. Kate I need you . . please come back, God give her back?!? Please? I really need her.*sniffles* I need her, and now I'm just gone . . . Written January 17th, 2002 © on Jan 17 2002 05:04 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1