deviousgirl

"Here before you is a person in pain- Here before you lies her bleeding soul. Here before you- is a cry that makes you whole heart ache. Wailing aloud, and dying inside- oh god make it stop!!!! She say..."

"A night in which to always remember, the sky was dark and the stars high above. I felt the drops of rain on my face, you brushed them so gently away. You leaned in closer, and I did too. You gazed lon..."

"There's this face that you see in the night The face is lonely and so cold. As you gaze closer - you begin to see all there is to "She." She once had hair that was up high- but now it covers her despe..."

"I am what makes you cringe as I walk by. I am what sits next to you and never gets up. I am what clings to you, and refuses to leave. You plead for me to go and make it stop! But there I am - relentle..."

"I'm your toy,cuddle and play with me. I'm your toy, the thing you pass around. I don't believe she has a name. I'm your toy, you play with my emotions. Hot then cold which is it? You lead me into lovi..."

"I wonder what I did- Why are you acting like this? I wonder how many more nights I'll cry myself to sleep? I wonder how many cuts I'll make this time? I'm so scared to be alone- I need you to live! I ..."

"Sitting in a room, all alone in my thoughts. Playing to my own song. I was beside myself with grief, but they all told me to smile. Playing my own song, I heard the angels from above. Their voices se..."

"It's kinda long, just preparing you!! Loving you killed me, and here's the story how. One night we were together, and I was the happiest I've ever been. We ran in night, and even ate by the ocean. ..."

"I lost something- I didn't think I'd need. It broke and fractured, but I didn't care. All it did was malfunction. So I didn't think too much of the loss. Now there's this whole in my chest. Something ..."

"Look at me now- back to where I started! I said I was over you! Why'd you have to be the one that I truly love? Why'd you have to have such amazing charm? Snapping the band didn't help. I didn't equat..."

"Trapped in this maze, lights whirling around. Music pulsating through my body. My head spinning more then I ever dreamed possible. I had to find a seat, I need a rest. The lights catch my eye, and I ..."

"Walking in a daze, not myself anymore. You stop and ask of my zombie ways. How can I say that last night, I almost died? Or even better, that I wanted to? I've never been that alone or scared. All the..."

"What do these words mean to you? Broken Dying Alone Scared Sick Tired Empty Used Jealousy Love Those words mean a lot to me. I'm broken, because they pushed me too far. And He made me think too muc..."

"Here I am, where the hell are you?I'm tired of always being cast out, I'm tired of you believing the trash that they speak!I'm tired of having to always justify myself to you!I can't take this anymore..."

"I fall to my knees, and ask how this could be you?Why do act this way, why do you suddenly not care?Damnit, you were my best friend!What are you now?I can't believe that it was you.How could you hurt ..."

"You may call me weak, because I always run back to Him.You may call me stupid,for believing in something that'll never work out.You may call me foolish, because I give my love to an unresponsive perso..."

"I got to see you tonight-I was the happiest I've been in awhile.I never got hugged like that before.No one told me I was that beautiful before.No one made me feel so warm, and loved.You did that tonig..."

"I love you, I love you not,I love you, I love you not!Those words constantly ravage my head.When I'm with you, all I do is shine.I sparkle, I sing, I'm radiant.I know you see the sparkle in my eye.We ..."

"Ran around looking for something to wear.Got dressed and did my hair,Sparkling-eyes, body, and smile.I felt so good, and all I wanted was you!I'm here where are you?Knock on the door-Fate had me stand..."

"Sitting all alone,with you by my side.I watched you, curled in a ball.You slept, and I watched you.You had the look of angelic peace.I almost wanted to silence the world, for fear that they'd wake you..."

"Not standing all too stable,careful because I will falter.Don't let me talk for all I can do is cry.Don't let me be by myself,because I'm not that strong.Too much has happened for me to feel safe.I've..."

"Months later, never thought this would happen. I never believed I’d get so attached. But you have me, just an idle pawn Standing in your game of chess. A little toy wrapped around your finger, Ready ..."

"Every love story has a beginning, and I remember ours so vividly! You were someone new, and I was intrigued. The way you spoke, the way you looked, and the way you smiled. For some unknown reason we j..."

"Wondering who you are, not sure if things will get better. Let me tell you, I will always be there! You have these attacks, and I know them all too well. You say that we make up who you are, and now y..."

"Sitting by the newly decorated tree, I breathe in that wonderful mint smell. I watch the lights twinkling, and blink. And in the background I hear a mix of holiday songs. I'm captivated by the light, ..."

"Stuck in a battle, where one or neither will win. Feeling the cross fire from all sides. Today it happened yet again, I let myself cry over you! My head says that you are wrong and I have to let go. I..."

"I don't know you anymore- You're not that same man that I once knew. You talk in a different way, nothing means the same. Your beautiful eyes have now turned me cold. I hope you know how much this hu..."

"All dressed up- make up done so well. There was a glimer of hope in my eyes. There was warmth in my smile. By the look on my face, you knew I was alive . . . But inside, you couldn't see- You couldn'..."

"Hard gruealing practices, and now it's time to show all that you've got. You dress, and prepare your hair . . . Butterflies bump and flutter freely in your stomach. After the last warm up stretch, t..."

"I wonder inside why these tears are streaming down? I ask you to decide if they are joyous or sorrowful. Today was the day that I looked forward to so long. I was ecstatic in your presence, and I was..."

"You- I'm sick and tired of your endless crap!! You constantly put me down, and I know you enjoy it. You enjoy that look, the one that shows how much it hurts. You savor the moment of the uneeded pa..."

"Just let me go- let me fall into my hole. I can't live this anymore, someone pick up the pieces that I left behind. Someone come to my side, I'm all alone and I hate it. Everyone who loved me has gon..."

"Good job Mandy, I'm so proud! You did it again, and you never thought you would. You believed that you'd do better, and never be that dumb. Well dearie, you did it! You rid yourself of the chains to ..."

"I won't ever let you go- I need you here with me! You have to stay, we love you, more then you'll ever know. I walked through the firey depths of hell for you, not once but twice. You can't go, I won..."

"Oh Mandy, here you go again-You went out with him, you let him in.You began to trust, ended in a total bust. You said yes that Tuesday night.You knew better because I told you so.I gave you that feeli..."

"Dearest One, Lately I've been trying to get my life back on track. I've wanted to live now, more then ever before. There's a problem though, and that's you! I met you so long ago, and only then did..."

"It's ok, I know I you're pain. My dear girl, you tried, you cared. I love you still it's just that you believed. He started to mean the world to you- He made you happy, and I enjoyed the knowledge of ..."

"6 months, 1 week, 4 days . . . that's how long you've been gone. That's how long I've been crying. That's how long somethings been missing. You were my angel, my confidant, my best friend, my life! Go..."

"Looking back, at the days behind me, wonderin'where I turned wrong? I gave my heart to you, and asked for nothing in return. I gave you my warmth, and my life, and still nothing asked from you. Our ..."

"Locked away in my heart, is a man. A man whom I have loved through it all. A man, who I grew to care so much about. It's been awhile, and I want to let him go. He calls constantly for his freedom . ...."

"Fading swiftly, and then coming back to mind. Let it go, just give up. Cut my strings loose, undo my bonds. let me go so I never have to return. Allow me to mourn, allow me to plead, for a love th..."

"Let me paint for you a picture, let me draw for you an image. An image of a girl, on not just any day. It was was mid afternoon, and it seemed dark as night. The sun was hidden behind ominous grey cl..."

"I really wonder what I'm doing with you  . . . I wonder how I was so determined in the beginning, but now slowly crawl back to you. Something, I believe has me captive. Ahh, the revals of charm. Your..."

"It's hard to leave what you know- It's painful to give up on what you worked so hard for. I know, and that's the saddest. It's right in front of me, but yet I don't want to see. Blind to the facts, an..."

"It is March, and yet I have so much left to go. So many days left behind me. March 6th marks it all, It'll be 7:30 at night . . . and all hell shall have broken loose. One year on that day and tim..."

"Sitting beside me, and not too much has changed. Your an angry child, blinded by your rage. Quick to accuse, and suddenly all alone. Condeming us to watch as you falter along the way. There you go . ...."

"I've waited for the right time, to say what I've always held deep inside my soul. I've been waiting for that moment to let it all go. And low and behold, I got my day. Thursday we stood in the rain, ..."

"Well darlin, you finally did it . . . pushed me hard enough, and then I fell. I was in a daze, encircled by fog, my judgement was impared, because I let you in. We created something that I thought m..."

"Curtains rise upon our production. Opening scene featuring you and me. Thou not the star, ay, that was I. No feelings thou spoke, no falling in love thee pleaded. Voice booming directions, but thy di..."

"I didn't mean to fall in love with you, but it could've been worse. You could've loved me too. Now I waver, uncertain of what to do. I walked, and the farther away I got, the more I hear my heart ..."