Letting Go . . . ( for a certain someone )

Every love story has a beginning, and I remember ours so vividly! You were someone new, and I was intrigued. The way you spoke, the way you looked, and the way you smiled. For some unknown reason we just clicked. We began to talk, and I with held nothing. A first for me! We had much in common, to me it was a love so true. As everyday went by, we grew closer. Hand holding everywhere, whispering in your ear, tickling each other. I was happy, filled with an amazing emotion. You gave me a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, and a voice filled with comfort. We had a special bond, something that made this life easier to live. I had you, and that's all I wanted. I had someone to hold me, I had someone to care. I had you! Some people never find their match. I found you, but I can't have you. I know my heart has finally pieced back together, because right now I feel it breaking. Everyday I'd look into your eyes, how they moved me! To have your arms,wrapped around me never felt so right. I was living my perfect world, with my perfect person. Time passed, and things happened. You still did all from before but it was empty. Your eyes lost that bedroom sparkle, and our love meant nothing. You held my hand, but we were cold. You kissed me, but it felt forced. My reason became an excuse to stay. You moved on despite all our happy days. I don't know what happened? We shared so much, more then I ever dreamed. And now your gone, like yesterday's sale. I'm still living in the past, determined not to let it fade. I'm holding onto something that's really nothing. Clinging to the past, for fear what tomorrow brings. You now have this girl, a girl who you believe has everything. I wonder . . . Does she produce that emotion in you? Does she make your heart swell? Does she make you truly happy? I watch the two of you, and it's sheer torture. The pain radiates through my body, when seeing you two together. The hardest thing is knowing that I have to get over you. It hurts to know that you loved me too. I have to let go, but I don't know how. I have to say good-bye, but I don't want to. I almost enjoy living like this, because I know what to expect. I was only following a dream that didn't match with reality. I lost you ( insert name ---- ) And now I'm stuck watching someone next to you, that should be me. And that's our story, it started like they all do. Promising and true. It ended like most do, with pain and resistance. I still love you, that's my story and I'm sticking to it!!It's long so bear with me!!!!! Written December 6th, 2001 © on Dec 06 2001 08:08 AM PST   18 • 0 • 8