Memories In Line With Fate

Look at me now- back to where I started! I said I was over you! Why'd you have to be the one that I truly love? Why'd you have to have such amazing charm? Snapping the band didn't help. I didn't equate your name with pain. What's this now . . . Where ever I turn, there you are. When ever I look up, here's you smiling back. When ever we split apart,moments later we reunite. I can't escape you, you're everywhere to me. I believe that's called fate, always ending up together. You're my little mystery, you're also the root of my pain. There's a difference between accept,and realize. And I know, you'll never be mine. You tell me of the "others." And ask if what you do is wrong? Well my dear is it? Is it wrong to ask me these things when you know? Do you enjoy the hurt painted on my face? Do you like the torture you inflict on my non-existant heart? Do you delight in the playing of my emotions? I promised myself I'd be over you! Where'd I go wrong? Did I get too close? You keep me from the others, but won't take me for yourself. It makes NO sense! I'm happiest when with you. I'm giddy, and I glow. The glow of someone happily in love. I'd do anything for you, and that you know! Tinkering with the possibilities, and playing with the capibilities. They see the way I act, why can't you? They know what you mean to me, why don't you? They deem us to be perfect, but I know I'm not the one! Why is getting over you the hardest thing to coquer in my life? Years, time, and myself invested. I come back smelling of your collogne. I sing our song, and keep the faith alive. The point is to keep the torch going, but now I say let it fade. Easiest to talk to you, and our many memories flash before my spell bound eyes. I stand, given two roads, which one to take? You're my amazing one, simply irresistible. Cannot picture life without you, or with you in it. Maybe it'll come when I least expect it? Will it come? Till then, it's sleeping with my hopes, and dreams. And loving you the only way I know how, and that's from afar! Written November 17th, 2001 © on Nov 17 2001 10:04 AM PST   18 • 0 • 8