Forever Came Today

Well darlin, you finally did it . . . pushed me hard enough, and then I fell. I was in a daze, encircled by fog, my judgement was impared, because I let you in. We created something that I thought meant a lot, I guess just to me it did. I was always there, and sacrificed everything, including me. I gave you all that I had, but even that didn't do. I looked into your once lively eyes, and saw that I held no weight in them. I tried, I reached out to the unreachable, I wasted years of my life. I cried myself to sleep more nights then I ever care to remember. I have been through more then I care to recall, and I knew you didn't even care. I was just another person, someone that you used to know. Someone who used to mean something. I called out to you, but you took no heed of my words. I told you I'd leave, I said I'd go, that is if you couldn't show . . that I meant something to you. Maybe that wall of yours was higher then I thought, maybe there was more left to climb? But I was through, burnt out more then I knew. You can't love and care for the cold, and numb. You can't be anything to people who want nothing. I said show me, show me I matter, you didn't know how. I threatened to walk, you didn't think I could, you thought I needed you. Wrong, darlin . . .you bring out the worst in me. A person that I don't think should ever come out of the brinks of hell. You made a person who I wanted gone, pain was all I felt. You shut your way of feeling that off, so I knew you couldn't see mine. All you had to do was care, all you had to was say I was something. The noose slipped over my head, and I jumped. . . I jumped from the riser, because I was dead to you anyways. I left, told you I could, I ended the "era" I tore it apart. I'll never look behind me, nor beside me, because you won't be there. You promised we'd be together forever, well I guess forever came today? Because the story of us just died, and I'll never recalim my spot by your side.Yeah, so that part of me is over, and those people who I was "friends" with then, I'm not anymore. I have other people, ones who really care about me! Today was the first day of the rest of my life! Written March 29th, 2002 © on Mar 29 2002 07:48 AM PST   18 • 0 • 10