Come Back Soon

Months later, never thought this would happen. I never believed I’d get so attached. But you have me, just an idle pawn Standing in your game of chess. A little toy wrapped around your finger, Ready for abuse. I remember how we were, And I want it back. I crave it every night, and I want my spot in the “nook.” The memories make me cry. I felt special, and now I’m just cast out. You hold me, still, but it’s at your convience. You run your hands down my legs, smooth you say. If you only you knew how it hurts to pull away. If only you knew how it felt. I sigh and miss those days. Where I was what made you happy. I got dressed for you, and I still do. But I have to remember, That I can’t have your rosy lips anymore. I can’t have those kisses of life. I can’t have those arms to hold me tight. You speak of wanting someone. Someone who will stick around and be serious. Someone who’s in it for the long haul. I’m just the runner up, Second best to the rest. Even though at one time, it wasn’t always this way. Why can’t it be me? Why not me? You ask if I’m jealous, I’m not, I happen to like my mask. Invisions of so much, but none of its true. Reel me in because I’m already hooked. Emotionally attached, and that’s the worst. Loving you now, not then. Look down, there I am wrapped around your finger. Cast your eyes away, and here I am. Waiting stupidly for your next command. You say I’m the confusing one, I don’t play around. Almost like I’m yours, but still you search for The better model. I want the old days, where I was the one. I miss those kisses, I need that warmth, I’m ready now. Here I am, emotionally attached! Written December 4th, 2001 © on Dec 04 2001 07:48 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1