In His Eyes

I wonder inside why these tears are streaming down? I ask you to decide if they are joyous or sorrowful. Today was the day that I looked forward to so long. I was ecstatic in your presence, and I was comforted by your warmth. Sitting by a brightly glowing tree, we exchanged gifts. I read with a happy heart, the message inscribed to me. What are these tears that stain my face? What's this called? Silver streaks of glitter, floating away from where they used to be. What's this aching pain in my chest? You said that I've come to mean so much- not ever replaceable. You said I've become your angel. Me, an angel?????? The only angel I know, was the one that saved my life. The only angel I know, has long since left her stay. I could never be "her." But in your brown hope filled eyes, I am. You said I'm perfect in so many ways. How can I hate who I am so much then? How can I cringe at every encounte of a reflection. How can I think such things if I am what you believe? You said God was generous with me, I'm just merely a curse. What are these tears, I can't make heads or tails? How can I mean so much to someone? I thought I didn't have to be told those things anymore. I thought I could live all alone. The second you said them, I felt something fill a hole. Me, the new Optimism Queen? Wow, I couldn't ever fill "her" shoes. I care for you so much, and I wonder . . . How through your eyes I'm seen like this? What did I do to make such an impression? I re-deemed my coveted title of "your amazing Mandy." It's everything I remembered it to be. So I've become your angel? You've always been my reason. My reason to live, my reason to pick up the pieces, and begin again. I'm an angel in your eyes. To me, you are my savior, here to save my tarnished soul.Inspired by an early Christmas gift, from redmoon. Written December 23rd, 2001 © on Dec 24 2001 02:05 AM PST   18 • 0 • 10