War! Head Vs. Heart

Stuck in a battle, where one or neither will win. Feeling the cross fire from all sides. Today it happened yet again, I let myself cry over you! My head says that you are wrong and I have to let go. It says that you mess up my life, and only cause destruction. It says that now after this, it's enough. I can't ever think of you the same. My heart says that I care, and that I've come so far already. It says that I'm supposide to fight. It says that you're worth it, and something good shall prevail. That leaves me torn. But I do know that tonight, was the final nail in the coffin. My heart shall weep for you no more. My head doesn't wish to give you anymore thought. You finally did it, aren't you proud? If you commit " the act," then were over! I can't look at you the same. If you do this, think of the loss. I'm serious if you do this then we're done! You never hurt me more then you have now. You've never stuck the dagger in this far, why won't you just take it out for good? Let me rest, let me live!! I hate you, and I can't believe that it came to this! I always looked out for you, and now your voice makes me cry. I collapsed into a crushed, life less ball. Life seeps through the wounds, it exits never to return. Everytime this happens, you age me before my time. I can't live like this way anymore. That's is you call that life. I can't live with head and heart in constant battle! You're dirty now, never thought of in the same way. I wonder, was it worth it? I hope she's good, I hope the gift was worth the price. I'm done with you, I've had more then enough. This is my sign, and I'm taking it. And this is me saying good-bye. This is me walking away. This is me hating you for what you did! I hope she was worth it, cuz you'll never get me back! Head won this battle, and heart was left in shambles. I'll never listen to our song again. The bad out weighs the good. I don't need this, I don't need you! I can't live on hope forever, and now I'm finally through!!!!!! You make my skin crawl at your sight. You presence, makes the venem present in my voice. It's over and now it's time, for the ever lasting good-bye. You hurt me for the last time . . . . . . Written December 12th, 2001 © on Dec 13 2001 05:05 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1