Defination Of Emotions

What do these words mean to you? Broken Dying Alone Scared Sick Tired Empty Used Jealousy Love Those words mean a lot to me. I'm broken, because they pushed me too far. And He made me think too much, He said things that broke my heart, God, why won't it stop? Dying, I wanted to die, and wondered why I didn't the other night? It seems as though it'll bring we what I seek. It's part of life, and right now, I don't see the point in mine. Someone like to help with that? Alone, that's how I feel when I cry those long, dark nights away. No one hears me, and no one cares! I live in this world by myself, and that's enough to be alone. Scared, is how I feel when I loose control. I fear that I will hurt someone that I love. Yes, I love but they don't love me. Sick, I am sick and those are the constant attacks. They rob me of my feelings, and ability to breathe, they slowly will kill me. Tired is how I am from fighting with those that hurt me. It's also the reality of a certain situation, it's tired. Some things will never change, and the things that He says are surely one of them. I'm tired of the stories, tired of being hurt, tired of feeling like a nothing. Tired of having my emotions laughed at, tired of trying soo damn hard, only to have it thrown back in my face. Tired of having hope, and it gets jaded, and leaves, because it knows that my ways will never change. Used, they use me until I run dry. I'm a toy, and they play with me. Jumping person to person finding nothing, no solice! Used to the core, where's the out of order sign? Slowly drying up, don't they see how much this hurts? To mean nothing? Just to be a worthless nothing? Jealousy, it's wrong to feel but I do. To all those that my He loves, displayed for the one that's bent on taking my place. Jealousy for those that have someone, for those that have meaning in their life? Where's mine? Love, I almost fight the urge to laugh . . . I'll never have it with the person that I want! What's the point in wanting something that you can't have? I love Him, but he has no clue, He doesn't know of my great sacrifice. It's alright, I don't ask for anything much, just a shot at something! It's the feeling that I want most present in my life, but no where near getting. It's what used to keep me alive, but isn't looking too promising. It's what I want to fill the hole in my life. I love Him, but He's slowly moving away . . . Broken Dying Alone Scared Sick Tired Empty Used Jealousy Love . . . . What do they mean to you? What's their defination in your life. You know what they mean in mine! Some are good, but others aren't right. Some I want, others I'll never find. Written November 21st, 2001 © on Nov 21 2001 07:06 AM PST   18 • 0 • 13