Missing Pieces

I lost something- I didn't think I'd need. It broke and fractured, but I didn't care. All it did was malfunction. So I didn't think too much of the loss. Now there's this whole in my chest. Something hefty used to fill it. I thought I could make it through, but was I ever wrong! The remnants of my heart lay upon the ground. All I can do is stare down, and make this helpless face. I swore it'd never be of need, but I have to get it back! How . . . Do you reclaim something that's unfixable? How do I continue to love with some of me gone? I haven't been "whole" in awhile. And I yearn for that feeling. Help me glue the pieces back together. For I need this now, more then ever!! I had a heart big in size. I was capable of love, but now the word has no meaning. Space fills the whole, and tears fill my eyes. It was strong for awhile, and then it failed me. Find the tape, it's got to be fixed! I was doing fine, but isn't that the job of numbness? To make you feel alright? I believed I could travel the road alone. What should I say now? I love you with all my  . . . .? Get the thread, we'll sew it back together! Anything to make it work. So what I gave up on, is now needed. I need back my heart, I want to love you again! I want to be able to say," I love you with all my heart!" Written November 17th, 2001 © on Nov 17 2001 09:45 AM PST   18 • 0 • 8