Laundry Day For The Mind

It's hard to leave what you know- It's painful to give up on what you worked so hard for. I know, and that's the saddest. It's right in front of me, but yet I don't want to see. Blind to the facts, and deaf to the cries. The root of the problem is me, the branch just happens to be you. I see the reason why change is so hard, and why people can't "kick the habit" It becomes life. It becomes the routine that's all you know. I'm a child of many unanswered questions. They whirl around in my head like the washer cleaning clothes. Although this head, rarely gets a cleaning. But today must've been laundry day . . for you see, life has many aspects. What we want, what we can't have, and what we cannot answer. She left my life because she wasn't intended to be involved in this. He doesn't love me, because he's not the one. I'm alone because I push those out that try to know me. The wounds re-open because they weren't given proper time to heal. I'm not understood because I don't want to be. She answered my questions, and yet she doesn't even really know me. Yet, trusting isn't that bad, and I didn't get hurt. I've been in my shell, unwilling to come out. Unforgiving, and stubborn to what is the way. I miss that old life, but it's nowhere in sight. Make do with what I have, and live the only way that I can. The questions used to haunt me, like a bad nightmare. But it's over, I know why I hurt so bad. The laundry for today is done, the cleansing has taken place, it's time now for new thoughts that include peace. Written March 5th, 2002 © on Mar 05 2002 11:46 AM PST   18 • 0 • 10