Stupid Girl, Not Again!

Good job Mandy, I'm so proud! You did it again, and you never thought you would. You believed that you'd do better, and never be that dumb. Well dearie, you did it! You rid yourself of the chains to only wear them again. Good job, I'm proud! You swore this time would be different? Why? You never wanted to learn- that history repeats its self. You had hope dear, and that was wrong. You thought this would be it, well it's not your call! You went back, told you not to! Did you listen?  No! Good job, I'm proud! Silly, silly girl, thought this time it'd work. Stupid girl, he wears just a smirk! You lead your self into the stairwell. You climbed about half way. He did it, and you knew it would happen. You screwed up! He kissed you! He kissed you, and here turns that wheel. Wonder what we'll land on today? Abandonment . .Torture . .Lust . . Failure. .Love You senseless girl, went too far! Yes you pulled away, but he was stronger! In a stairwell none the less! He had this look, and you knew better! He held you captive in the well. He wanted you, but you denied. He didn't want to let you go, his lips are pressed upon mine. You let him have what he wanted, hoping it'd free you somehow. You crazy girl, he only wanted you more! People saw you, and now it's all around. Damn you girl, won't you ever learn? Won't you let the wounds heal, before making more? Won't you listen this time? His touch, made you tingle. And on your shirt was his scent. You hopeful girl, screwed up again. He's going to leave you, as he always did. You don't mean anytying, why can't you grasp that thought? You silly, stupid, senseless girl! It's coming back to get you! And now you'll always walk in your chains! You made yourself vulnerable, you opened up the wounds. You are foolish to believe that this time would be different then the others! Good Job Mandy, you made me proud yet again!This poem is my conscience telling me what a fool I am for being that vulnerable again! Written January 2nd, 2002 © on Jan 02 2002 10:19 AM PST   18 • 0 • 10