What My Future Holds

The air will stand still, Regret is the last thing they will feel, A tear will roll down a stranger's face, As you laugh and call me a disgrace, Actors and actresses is what you will be, As soon as you realise not crying puts your reputation in jeporady, Mom and Dad, one word of advice, When people say "I'm sorry for your lose,"..Don't laugh, It's not a joke.. They're trying to be nice The sky will rumber with thunder, I'll be smiling, Afterall, you can't hurt me when I'm 6ft under, The drive home will be silent, Mom won't talk, afraid her voice will come out too cheerful, So she does her best to force a few tears, With Chase's arm around Ashley to calm her fears, They arrive back home, I'll be free for once, all alone, Rain will start to fall, my few fake flowers will wash away, Perhaps finally settling on a more deservant grave, A few weeks will pass, My darkness remains, As you find trying to cover up your happiness so hard it brings you pain, All my life You've been the one laughing, and me the one crying, I now see my death won't change a thing.......This was written when my Leukemia was bad off, it started out as just a little story to see what my funeral would be like.. And ended as this little poem.. gimme ur comments.. good or bad Written January 1st, 2002 © on Dec 31 2001 03:49 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1