A Reason For Depression
It would help if I didn't dream about you every night, dream about you coming back to me and things just start right where they left off, you are best freind, have been ever since we were kids, and my first love, that is something that I will never forget. I sometimes wish that I was capable of sending some kind of message to you, to let you know how much I think of you and how much I just want to hear your voice. It's like you are teasing me in my dreams and when I wake up my heart hurts so bad and my tears won't stop and all I want to do is hold you. It is so hard for me to explain to people the effect you have had on me, the inspiration you have given me to follow my dreams and not look back, to be who I want to be because I simply can. I went to your house a couple weeks ago, where you used to live. Some kid answered the door and I asked for your mom and he said she didn't live there anymore. Do you know how long it took me to work up the nerve to do that, and then the blow I felt knowing that that was my last chance to find you? And even as I write this I cry, it is so painful for me, it has been 2 yrs since I seen you last and you are still teh first thing on my mind in the morning and the last at night, and a thousand times in between. I seen a picture of you yesterday and that hurt like hell, I seen the all to familiar smile on your face and I swear I heard you laugh. I sat out on the porch of the house you used to live in with my freind and we talked about all the times me and you had together, about all the things that we went through and all the crazy stuff we used to do, do you remember? And even though I know you will never read this a part of me needs to believe you will, a part of me needs to believe that I am in your thoughts right now, and that you will find me and once again we will be together.this is written for my everything, he is in the army and I miss him like crazy, it is more of a letter of desperation that a poem Written February 24th, 2002 © on Feb 24 2002 11:59 AM PST, Chauna 18 • 0 • 1
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"It would help if I didn't dream about you every night, dream about you coming back to me and things just start right where they left off, you are best freind, have been ever since we were kids, and my first love, that is something that I will never forget...."